Psycho

Alive

Trigger warning; Suicidal thoughts, panic, and manipulation

I wake back up in the same cell, but I'm not chained up anymore.

I realize that no one is around.

I try to stand but fail.

I'm so heavy...my body hurts...my mind is so quiet.

I sit and relax I'm not angry, just tired.

I hear a knock on my door and the doctor comes in.

"How are you feeling, Ash?" He's back in that calm voice.

I try to speak, but can't. It takes too much energy to.

"Good." He speaks calmly. "Do you remember who I am?"

I nod sightly.

"So do you remember what happened yesterday?"

I think and realize I have all my memories still, but make no reaction to it. I shake my head.

The doctor smiles warmly. "Don't worry, we will be giving you pills every day and night so you can get your memories back. We're here to help you, Ash. Just trust us." He speaks softly. I nod.

He leaves and I'm stuck in the silence. I hate it.

I sit there. My mind silent, not working.

I can't speak or walk or anything.

My breathing picks up and I can't scream for someone.

I think;

I just want it all to be over.

I want want to yell at the top of my lungs or never again.

I can't be free if I'm locked up.

I might not ever get my freedom ever again!

I can't keep being numb, it's tiring and it hurts like shit! 

Just as I was about to fall apart I hear a loud knock on my door and can feel myself calm down.

Guard 1 cames in and gives me the food and the white pill.

"Are you okay?" It's like he can see the pain in my eyes.

I nod.

He then leaves and I eat the food, but not the pill. I hide it in my pants this time so they really can't find it.