╰┈➤ jeonghan
jeonghan's pov
it has been a few months after our break up, and honestly i don't know why did i decided to break up with her just because i feel stressed out about her mental health.
i feel so stupid, as we are just friends now. and, when i said, just friends, i meant it. for these past few days, i mean, actually as soon as we stopped being in a relationship, every time i visited her.. everything just changed.
i still remember the first day i visited her, that was when i have made my mind and have been thinking long about my desicion whether i should visit her and go on with the 'just friends' thingy that i've put us into, or just straight away letting everything go and made us strangers again.
but, yeah, i did and visited her. that day was almost three weeks after that one awful day where i gave up on her, and decided not to ruin my own mental health because of her.
and when i knocked on the door, i was surprised, because she does look like she's fine, and made me thinking, did i made the right decision? because she does seems better, but on the other side, looking at myself, i actually can't stop thinking about her, i constantly think what she's doing, is she doing fine and everything, but i still cannot bring myself to admit it was my fault to end things between us before thinking about it more through fully.
when i saw her, she gave a smile. that usual smile that always made me melt. and, still gave the same effect even until today.
"oh, hi bro. come in."
that was her first sentence when she saw me. at that moment, i knew and i realized how i fucked up everything.
i feel like completely shitty but i managed to hold it in and act like everything is fine. starting from that time, whenever we hang out, everything has completely changed.
nothing is the same as it was before, other than my feelings for her.
i will visit her once in a week, even though she doesn't asked me to do so. everytime, she'll limit me to just sit on the couch, as if i never walked around the house like it used to be mine.
she'll often being on her phone and answered me shortly, as if i didn't know how talkative she is.
she'll look at me with those empty eyes.. as if.. as if she wasn't the same girl that always look at me like im the only treasure that she have in this world.
everything is making me go crazy.
and without noticing, it has been 7 months since the last time i held her in my arms, i kissed her lips, i heard her nonsense stories about how her days went like, and the last time i saw her cry.
i missed her. so much.
but now, she's just a friend of mine.
nothing more.
im no longer her 'baby', the person that she cared and love. and i feel so awful knowing that.
there's never once she would text me or call me first, unless im the one who started it. she never visited my place either.
i feel like she's doing this to punish me? but, i don't know.
now i've decided that i'll have to make everything right, even though it's already too late, and im not sure if im able to do this or...
i'll actually lost her forever.
but, i'll take this risk, and i don't want to think about the outcome for now.
"goodluck, jeonghan." i said to myself before i knocked on her door.
she opened it, with a blank expression. "come in."
as i stepped inside, i froze.
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"this is jeonghan, my friend." she said to the unknown guy that was sitting on the couch.
i gulped, what's happening?
"and jeonghan, this is dokyeom, my boyfriend."
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i guess... it's actually too late to make things right again.
author's note: uh hi, you guys can choose one story from this book, i mean the best one in your opinion, bcs im thinking of making one book for the selected story ^^
