I NEED YOU

chp - 24

                 Ishman's room
Ishan
But why will you leave 2 days later that's the only thing I am asking

Shubman
I-I have something to do .

Ishan
What is it Shubman are you alright?

Shubman
Yes I will tell you later but not now please trust me . I have something to do .

Ishan
Okay fine

Shubman
Uhmm Ishu see now we are together you forgave me . We are also engaged right ?

Ishan
Yes Shubman?????

Shubman
Um can you please not call me Shubman? If you know what I mean

Ishan
It's your name

Shubman
Before you used to call me Shubiee or Shubuu or Shub so why not now?

Ishan
O-oh o-ok . I will try Shubman

( Shubman just nods and then they both sleep cause everyone tomorrow will leave early in the morning. Shubman is the only one staying back )

                  At the Airport

Shubman
Ishuuu why is your flight so late ?

Ishan
You want me to leave isn't it tell me .

Shubman
Ishuuuuuuuu

Announcement
Please the passengers to Bihar board the flight .

Ishan
Byeeee

( Ishan without looking back was leaving. Shubman was feeling really heavy inside)

Shubman
BYEE SAFE JOURNEY LOVE

( Ishan was really far . He ran behind and hugged Shubman very tightly)

Ishan
I will miss you Shubman

Shubman
I love you Ishu and I will miss you too

Ishan
I love you so much

( Ishan kisses Shubman and then runs away from there )

Shubman
He will be the reason for my death

Shubman holds his heart blushing hard .
Shubman leaves the airport and goes back to the hotel in his room .

             At Shubman's room

Shubman came inside his room and just layed on his bed .

Shubman's thoughts - I do not deserve Ishu . He is a pure angel and I am a murderer . I killed my own child but Ishu he forgave me . I do not deserve to live how could I kill my own blood ? how could I not trust my Ishu ? How could I be this heartless? Why am I this selfish? Ishan deserves someone better who does not hurt him and his child . My child my blood my Ishu's part .
( Ishan's ultrasound report was under the pillow Ishan forgot it . Shubman held it to his chest and yelled crying badly)
I KILLED IT . IT DIED BECAUSE OF ME I AM A BLOODY MURDERER I DESERVED TO DIE NOT MY CHILD.

( Ishan enters the room and sees Shubman crying holding the ultrasound report. Ishan just goes near Shubman and hug him)

Shubman
How are you here ? Your flight?

Ishan
It's gonna be okay. Everyone needs a bad day. Remember you told me
You're not alone, just pick up the phone And call me whenever you're feeling lonely . Remember you told me . You're not alone, .
The best days are ahead of you.
Tomorrow isn't your yesterday
I've been there, down that road
When you need me, I'll be here right by your side .
Cry all you want I am here right by your side and remember I won't leave you never you asked me to marry you and now you can't step back .
Whatever happened was never your fault Shubie . It was faith so leave it behind and start a new future full of happiness.

( Shubman hugs Ishan back and crys harder.
After an hour of crying he stops )

Shubman
Y-your flight?

Ishan
Well the moment I entered the flight I remembered that I forgot my ultrasound report so I came back to get it and saw you crying.
Now Shubiee tell me what do you feel and why are you suffering in silence? When I am right here share with me everything you want to say .

Shubman
Some nights, I don't even sleep
Chest tight with anxiety
Stay up to see the moon leave the sky
Some days, I'm not even me
Same old memories clouding my mind . I don't understand why did you choose me again ? After after I did a big blunder.

Ishan
Well because you are different . After making mistakes people love there way into other person's heart but you annoyed your way into my heart .
So , Did you want me to reject you?

Shubman
No

Ishan
I suffered a lot Shub . I won't ever forget what happened with us but life goes on . You changed you are a better person than you were before this is why I chose you again . I am ready to make the same mistakes again if this is what can calm your mind . I just need you beside beside me and then I can fight the whole world . I need you

Shubman
I don't deserve you

Ishan
Of course you don't but now the whole world knows we are going to get married and Tilak is also dating someone. So my last option is you . I guess now you will have to adjust with me your whole life .
So just Shut Up and tolerate me your whole life .

Shubman
I love you so much like so fucking much.

Ishan
Why did you want to stay back?

Shubman
I guess I wanted to get therapy because my mind is always overthinking and it is from the start from the very first day years back when I started dating you . My mind has been filled with insecurities .
I always feel someone might snatch you away from me and after what I did to you . The anxiety just never leaves me .

Ishan
I won't ever leave you just relax............ So my flight now must have gone so let's go on your therapy session together.
If you don't mind I can also accompany you to your house in Punjab .

Shubman
I WOULD LOVE THAT . We will marry each other soon and let's make you pregnant before next year starts
( Shubman hugs Ishan so tight that he won't ever be able to leave him ) .

Ishan
You know I have wanted to ask you something for a while

Shubman
Yes love ask me

Ishan
Uhm I-I uhm well y-you .

Shubman
What is it Ishu . Ask me without any worry .

Ishan
Well you told me before you did not want to get married before the age of 30 and not have children. Y-you even mentioned that I will have to abort it if I-I get pregnant......... So now you do not mind?

Shubman
I was dumb I was a fool this is why I said that . You know I can even marry you right now right here . I want to do that so much . Ishu I said those words I accept it but when I realised about my love for you that I love you so damn much and I want you to be with only me . I regretted saying those . If you would have gotten pregnant when we were still on good terms I would have never made you abort it . Never ever. I was just immature and it left my mouth. I am sorry

Ishan
Let's forget about our past now and think about our marriage. SHUBIEE DO YOU REALISE IT WE WILL GET MARRIED SOON

Shubman
YES AND I AM SO HAPPY
I LOVE YOU ISHAN KISHAN

Ishan
I LOVE YOU SHUBMAN GILL .

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