"I already have everything ordered and prepared." He told me as he moved his hand over the white table cloth to hold mine.
Within a few minutes a waiter came with a bottle of red wine and poured us each a glass. Then he came out with a steaming basket of roles in a wooden woven basket with red trim to match the red carpet of the room. Then as we were just starting to talk about things other than school a shining silver plate came out with a red lobster on it.
"Wow" I said just under my breath.
The night went amazingly. The dinner was fun and we talked about everything. Before I knew it we were heading to Derik's place. His apartment was on the fifth floor of an old hipster like building. We walked up the stairs and into his apartment. It was small but quite quant and homey. The kitchen was directly on the left with dark wood and dark appliances. Directly ahead was French doors that lead to the only bedroom. Then on the right there was a door that lead to the bathroom and then a couch and TV with a book shelf a little closer on the right.
"Soooo" he whispered in my ear as he started to kiss my neck. "Want to head to the bed room?" he asked with a kiss in between every word.
"Yes." I whispered back as I pulled him in for a real kiss on the lips. He led me by my hand to the dark bed room and flipped on the lights. He pulled of his shirt and started to kiss me more and more. He was starting to get hotter and hotter and I kept feeling like I was doing nothing but stand there so I pushed him away.
"What, do you want me to stop? Just tell me and we can just watch a movie or I can take you home." He told me taking a few steps back and putting his hands up like he saw a spooked animal.
I took a minuet to smile and look at him. He had milky white skin that was in a huge contrast to his dark black hair. His eyes were also a contrast to his skin in that they were a warm chocolate brown that you wanted to melt into and made you feel safe and comfortable.
"No, I don't want to stop." I told him as I pulled off my dress, reveling a black lacy braw and a lacy panties that Alex had to basically pay me to ware.
"Wow." Was all that Derik could get out. Then he surged forward and started to kiss me everywhere. I didn't know what I was supposed to feel, but all I could feel was worry that I would get the butterflies or 'feeling' that Alex had talked about. Derik pulled me pack into the moment when he started to bite my neck in that way that you do when you want to leave someone a hicky. As he started to go lower and lower on my body he pulled me back to the black silk bed spread. Once we got there he pushed my body closer to his and I felt an alarming bulge.
I jumped away feeling scared and disgusted and like I should be feeling happy that I had caused that. All I felt was disinterest and like I was just being used for my body. That I had no interest in Derik's body.
"What?" said Derik, like he was talking to a spooked animal.
"I'm going home, I'll call a cab. Thank you for tonight." I told him grabbing my dress off the floor and running out before he could say another word.
Why was I not into having sex? I knew what being turned on felt like and what I was supposed to do, but none of that came with Derik. He had been a complete gentlemen. I had just felt nothing. Like all my nerves had been turned off and his touch just was like pressure on my body. Like nothing important. By that time in my train of thought I had gotten down the five set of stairs and pulled out my phone to call an ubour. Within 15 minutes I was home and within another 15 I was in pajamas and climbing into bed.
Once I was in bed I started to text Alex.
K: I'm home
A: So you did it??????
K: nope
A: did he not make a move??!!
K: no
K: we got as far as first layer off but I left
A: Why?
A: DID HE HURT YOU??????
A: I WILL KILL HIM
K: no, he was perfect
A: then why no bunny making?
K: I left
A: Why?
K: idk
K: im just not ready I think
A: want me over ?
K: no, I want to be alone
A: ok, then just sleep.
K: OK, night
With that last message I got out of bed and turned off the light. Just as I had climbed back into bed the door burst open.
