Weird One (Alex G x OC)

3.

As me and Alex walk I feel comfort in the silence, unlike last night. He told me earlier that I shouldn't worry about the kiss, it made me feel a little bit better but still...how the fuck am I supposed to not worry about it? I mean, of course I feel safe with him. Just I don't know if I feel safe with myself. I was always taught that being queer was bad and it was literally a one way ticket to hell, so how am I supposed to not freak out about this? My mind is in such a fucking twist. "Can we go chill out at the park?" I look to Alex who also seems to be in a separate world, lost in thought. "Yeah." He looks back at me, the same brown eyes from last night.

We cross the street to where the park is. "Faggots!" A guy yelled out at me and Alex, his group of friends behind him started to laugh at his 'remark'. "Oh my god." I scoff quietly. "Fuckin' douche's" Alex chuckled. "They're so fucking annoying, dude!" I always got worked up about the stereotypical guys that just find happiness and enjoyment in making other people feel bad about themselves because they feel bad about their selves, and how I am always one of the people that they target. "Do you wanna see my favorite spot?" I change the subject as I look at Alex. "Yeah!" He smiles. "Okay, it might be a little sloshy cause' it's January but it's still cool." I warn him as I walk towards a old sewage tunnel that's under a bridge connected to a road. It's always been completely abandoned, me and Calvin always hung out inside it when we were in middle school. I lift my leg up to step on the ledge on the tunnel, it's a bit slippery from the water dripping from the top. I lunge myself up and hold out my hand to help Alex. "I actually have one of these by my house, it was always swarmed with those weird long-legged spiders." Alex said while taking my hand and pulling himself up. "Daddy Long legs?" "Yeah! There were so many." Alex released my hand. "Yeah, they always stick on the wall. I once stuck my hand in a nest of them, it actually made me want to throw up." I chuckle. "Ew, damn! I couldn't imagine, dude."
I lean onto the tunnels wall and slide down, moving to a crisscross-apple-sauce position. Alex pulled his backpack off of his shoulders and placed it to the side and sat down next to me. The cold breeze passed through the tunnel as well as my anxious feeling, causing me to shake from cold temperature and jitter-ness. Alex placed his hand next to mine. Shit, now I have no late night to blame. We both sat in silence a bit. I cleared my throat before I spoke, "So, what do you want to do?" I look at him. "I have no clue, man." He looks back at me with a chuckle. I look away, forward at the wall across from me. "We can smoke? I still have a few left." Alex suggests. "Nahh, im sorry but my mom would actually kill me if she even smelled me." I chuckle. "Nah, nah, man. I get it." He shakes his head as he chuckles. My hand so close to his is making me freak. I want to kiss him again.
Maybe I could just ask him, sometimes the homies can kiss...Right? I mean I never kissed Calvin and never planned to. What if someone sees us? What if those guys come over and they are people I actually know? I look back at Alex, staying silent. Alex looks at me. We both look at each other for a few seconds before I lean in and kiss him. The same feeling came back, but more calm. I place my hand on his, the warmth of his hand compared to mine made me feel butterflies. I slightly moved close to him, making the kiss more intimate. My hand on top of his. My lips against his. His. Him. Me. Alex hesitates a bit and I pull back, worried he was uncomfortable. "Your hand is absolutely fucking freezing, dude." Alex starts to laugh. I exhale, a bit relieved I didn't mess anything up. "Dude, you scared me." I chuckled while flipping my gaze between his eyes and lips. Alex moved his hand away from under my hand and placed it on top, warming it up. "Thanks." I feel my face warming up a bit as I look at Alex. For some reason it felt like me and him were the only ones on earth right now, all my worries were away on vacation. "I'm sorry I'm so weird." I stare into his deep brown eyes. He leans in and kisses me first. I close my eyes and lean my head to the left slightly to deepen the kiss. I want this to last. His warmth is causing me the most comfort I've had in a long time. How can I feel this much from a person I haven't even known for 24 hours? Strangely enough, he tasted like the strawberry Poptarts we had prior to this. "Alex." I muttered as I leaned back, breaking the kiss. He opened his eyes, "Huh?" he looked at me confused. "I'm sorry but can we go somewhere more private? I don't know, I'm just scared someone I know will see us." I looked away. "Oh yeah, of course. We can go to my house, no one should be home." He suggested. I nodded and stood up. Alex lifted his backpack as he stood up, slightly slipping around on the wet plastic middle of the tunnel. I held out my arms out of instinct to help him if he falls. "I'm good, man!" Alex chuckles while slowly walking towards the opening of the tunnel. "Famous last words." I chuckle as I follow him.