Eye contact

Punishment

⚠️ Warning ⚠️ Sexual scene, violation

We had a poignant silence for a few minutes, Noah stopped talking and was in agony and I couldn't say anything because I understood that no words can comfort a person who saw his family killed at the age of seven. "Ami, I didn't even cry when I saw the dead bodies of my family being taken away because my mind couldn't accept what had happened. I kept telling myself it was a nightmare and when I woke up I would find my mother hugging me while showing me her shiny smile and I would find my father sitting in the office. But instead of that happening he threatened to kill my sister if I didn't shoot his enemy in the same dark room and I killed him. I was only seven years old but I shot him because I couldn't lose her she was the only family I had." He said "Oh my God," I said, pushing my hair back with my fingers anxiously. Unexpectedly, tears began to fall from my eyes, "This life does not deserve these golden tears, my moon.  Don't cry for me, I don't deserve it at all," he said, wiping my tears with his palm. He deserves everything He deserves all good things.

I used to blame him for being cold and cruel, but for what this planet has done to him, even if he destroys the whole world, it is not enough. From every word he spoke, I understood that living itself was a pain for him.  " I couldn't be the angel, instead, I decided to be the devil. There is no angel you can save. I killed him with the man I shot when I was 7 years old. " He said, bowing his head in regret. I felt his pain, every pain he went through, no one can handle it, it's a miracle to be alive after all this mental trauma. "No, don't say that Noah, if there's anyone to blame in this story, it's James," I said, giving him a sad smile." Ethan, I mean it was your older brother who was killed by my father?" I asked, praying that by some miracle it wouldn't be true, "No, it's not Ethan, he killed James' only son, but he was also like a brother to me," he said. "Ohh," I said, letting go of my slight guilt, "But he's not like James, in fact, he's the opposite." he sighed

 

"So what about your sister? He made her do the same thing as you. " I asked and he took a breath before speaking "She was his tool. When he wanted to force me he would threaten me with her and if I did anything wrong he would punish her instead of me because he knew he would hurt me more. It hurts to think that every pain she went through was because of me even he - " He cut off before finishing what he started to say "Are you fine?" I said looking at him. "Ami, I can't go on with this topic anymore because talking about my past hurts more than you can imagine. I've lost people who love me and I've lost people who care about me and I don't even know what it means to be loved. That feeling has left me because I have no one." He said, When I saw his eyes that only showed pain I understand why he doesn't talk about his past.

Sometimes talking can ease the pain, but every time such incurable wounds are talked about, they make the pain worse. To be honest, Noah has more than enough reasons for the way he is now. "I am here, I am always yours and you have a big place in my heart," I said hugging him tightly. " I have?" He smiled, but his eyes were still filled with pain.

"So let's change the subject," I said sitting on his lap and kissing him softly "Don't blame me if you met the naughty Noah after five seconds," he said with a smile continuing to kiss me hard. I sent my hand to his chest but I remembered the words of the woman who called me on Noah's phone and I put my fingers down, thinking that he doesn't like to be touched, "Touch me all over, Ami, touch me until I forget this damn world, touch me until I'm out of control." He said kissing my neck and I started touching his muscular chest, his hands were all over my body I couldn't help it I moaned softly as he kissed me down to my boobs I laid my neck back giving him a way to go down further.