Serendipity [on hold]

Confession

 Ishan pushed Shubman back , his heart beating fast . Shubman smiled despite the push, he still felt the heavenly feeling of those lips . 

"what are you doing Shubman ..?" Ishan had asked , angry , sad or what Shubman can't define those expressions featured on the beautiful face.

"umm I just felt it so right Ishan .. I know .." He cupped other's face in his hands breathing in each other and Ishan has locked eyes with him .

"no .. you can't , we can't .. this is so wrong ..." 

"why is it wrongs when I feel it right ..?" Shubman asked pecking his nose and Ishan closed his eyes. "nhi Shubi.. Mera boyfriend hai.. Abhishek sharma.. aur tum Ronit ko pasand karte ho mujhe nhi .."

Ishan explained creating some distance between them and Shubman again pulled him.

"vo sirf boyfriend hai, aur mujhe tumhari aankho me uske liye pyaar to khi nhi dikhta .. aur me ronit ko pasand karta hu to iska matlab ye nhi ki me kisi aur se pyaar nhi kar sakta .. he was just a crush Ishan.. mere jo ye dil hai na .. " 

Shubman has put other's hand over his chest "ye tumhe dekh ke dhadkta hai .. itti jor se .. ronit ke liye aisa kuch nhi hota .." Ishan can feel the heartbeats .

"but I am in a relationship.. this is wrong .." 

"then why do your eyes scream to me .. why your soul begs to be free ... why do this heart of mine tell me that .." 

"THAT?" a small whisper and Shubman once again closed the gap between their lips saying  "that something is wrong in this relationship of yours.."

The kiss was so soft and pure , filled with love, tears ran out of Ishan's eyes . H e has never been assured like this , his soul needed it and he let himself drown in this mess for a minute.

But the life was cruel to Ishan, and a knock made him come out of the dreamy trance , he stood up panicking . 

"baby open the door .. " 

"oh my god it's Abhi... " Ishan looked back at Shubman who was looking at his face stupidly and Ishan looked here and there in the room .

"I am saying last time Ishan .. fucking open the door jaan..." 

Ishan pulled other boy up "oh god who the hell smile like this in hard situations.." He looked down from the window.

"Shubman please go form here.. agr Abhi ne dekh liya to dikkat ho jayege ... " 

"aur na jau to ..?" Shubman's smirk widened making Ishan panic more by each second, he can feel the patience running thin of his boyfriend.

"I don't want you dead .. and more over my mother please .. " his eyes watered.

"hey hey .. relax baby.. " Shubman whispered kissing other's eyes "tum smjh nhi rhe ho Shubman... bs jao yha se please .." 

"ok jara rha hu.. tum ye aaso puch lo.. mere dil dukhta hai inhe dekh ke ..." Shubman wiped the tears and finally step on the outside sill of window and climbing down by the help of Iron hooks in wall .

"ok I am gonna break this fucking door.." Ishan can hear the pushes as he sprayed the scent in the room and quickly entered the bathroom .

Abhishek entered inside not happy "ISHAN!" no sight and then the running shower hitted his ears , he cautiously took step near bathroom , looking in the room.

"are you there .. Ishan..?"

Ishan stopped the shower "Abhi is that you .. ? oh my god I am sorry .. I could not hear you before .. " his hand shaked but he decided to act, a very innocent boy can be dragged and Ishan surely don't want this.

"ah ok jaan.. take your time .." a sigh of relief left his lips before he started the shower again, standing under the warm water his muscles relaxing and the stupid boyish smirk running infront of his eyes. 

"me tenu bhoot jaldi le javaga .. " 

the lines Shubman has said to him, once again his heart betraying his mind to trust someone, that yes maybe there is way out of the cage of Abhishek.

Abhishek walked up to the open window to close it , as the cool wind making its way inside but his eyes went to the shoe marks on white sill , making him clench his first .

"I swear jaan, if it has something to do with you.." and his eyes went to the camera installed on the pole opposite to their room. 

"Babe, you've been awfully quite" Abhi said looking at his boyfriend and serving him the food.

 Ishan looked up from his lap and just forced a smile saying a quiet thank you. 

 "Beta, tu thik hai na"  Abhi's grandmother said in a worried tone. And Ishan yet again just forced a smile and nodding his head.

 Shubman was staring at Ishan the whole time, he felt guilt wash over him.  Maybe he forced himself on Ishan, but... he kissed back. That means he like him... Right?

"Shub, kya hua tujhe" Ronit asked shaking Shubman a little and he flinched at the sudden touch.

 "N-Nothing" He stutter out removing Ronit's hand from his shoulder making him frown. "Athrav bhaiya will come, right" Abhi asked and his father nodded his head lightly.

Ishan eyes take on a hunted look, He was paralyzed to the spot, the menacing aura holding him in a tightening grip. The name was enough for Ishan to Stop all his movements.

He excused himself and ran toward his room, he sat on the bed staring at his reflection on the mirror. He was breathing heavily, he tried to control his breathing but he can't. 

 It was happening again... he was having the panic attack. 

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Thank you for reading it.

finally I have got the rythm to complete this ff , as I realized that it so wrong to make readers of this ff wait so long, as I have completed many others of mine. 

just force the other author @adorablepayno     to update quickly.