His bunnyboy

Chapter 13: NJ

-Long chapter-

He grabbed my arm stopping me momentarily. I looked back at him and saw that his face edged with concern but how was I supposed to tell him that just the idea of him leaving me, felt like the ground was going to collapse from underneath me. How do you tell your best friend something like that. Have I been kidding myself this whole time.

"Was last night really just a one-time thing.?" I thought turning away, walking until I stepped inside my study, closing the door behind me. I finally let the emotions that had built up on the drive home, escape. The tears fell, the warm liquid spilling down my cheeks.

I- don't know what I'm going to do. I've fucking messed everything up.. I got too cocky. Too overzealous. I thought slumping into my desk chair.

I pushed him too far. Getting tipsy was the wrong move. I held my face as I continued to cry into my hands, weeping quietly so Jimin wouldn't hear.

"He's not responsible for my unrequited feelings and if he truly doesn't feel the same..." I thought.

I could feel my heart ache deep within the cavity of my chest. My body trembled at the intense emotions festering inside.

I should have just been honest with him.. The more thoughts that filled my mind, the had worse it got, and I could feel myself getting lost.

I sat in my desk chair, weeping for what felt like a long time without realizing it. Stuck in the same cycle, tormenting myself with the worst possible outcome when out of nowhere my phone began to ring loudly. It startled me, pulling myself out of my thoughts. I whip my cheeks of the fresh tears and nose on the back of my sleeve before pulling my phone out. The phone kept ringing as I saw that it was Hobi.. As the phone rang, I felt an intense need to hear my friend's voice. So, after a moment of staring at his contact, I answered the phone.

"Hey- *cough* Hobi. What's up?

'Hey, just wanted to check in with you about last night?" He asked with glee.

I couldn't hold it back and began sob over the phone to my dear friend.

Hey! What's the matter, what happened Joon?" He asked panicked hearing me so distraught.

"He's going to leave Hobi, I just know it." I wept to my friend. "I shouldn't have let us get drunk and let things happened the way they did. I'm sure he just felt cornered and didn't want to be rude. I pretty much forced him. He never liked me, and I've made all this up in my head."

"Woah- hold on a minute Namjoon please calm down. Take a moment to breathe. Please breath." He encouraged me to do so with him as he exaggerated his own breath on the other side of the phone. I began to take deep inhales and exhales alongside him as I let my tears dry. I let out a heavy sigh of relief.

"There we go.. Good.." He calmy said. "Now, tell me everything that happened."

After spending the next 15 minutes explaining the last events of the past 24 hours that transpired the night before to this morning to the drive home. I explained in pretty heavy detail mostly including things I thought I had notice how Jimin reacted to certain things and how he responded. At the end of it all.

Hobi took a moment to breath, processing it all before finally saying. "So, since he didn't kiss you in a public packed restaurant. You think he's going to leave you? He asked.

"Uh yeah.."

Hobi took one more deep breath before saying. "Namjoon. I'm sorry, this is not to invalidate your feelings, but I think you might be-