Seungin

12 (The end.)

Tw: same harmful like topics then the last chapter also its gonna handle more topics like it also mentions of sh and death, eds

It had been a few days and every newschanels were making news of what had happended, they had been intervied so many times that they were already so tired of it, they didnt want to take it anymore.

5 days after the accidents, the 4 remaining boys stood in the cemetary as the 4 caskets were lowered to the ground, one by one.. they were crying harder now then when they died, they still couldnt belive what had happended, not even when they stood over the now covered graves in their suits.
"C-can we stay for a little longer" Seungmin spoke quietly, he had turned really quiet after what had happended, barely speaking
"Sure" Chan mumbled and sat on the ground and the other 3 did the same
"I dont wanna be here without them" Felix wiped away his tears
"I know.." Hyunjin placed his head on Felix's shoulder
"Theyd want us to move on with our lives." Chan stood up
"Lets go before some jourlanist spots us" he added and the 4 left.

For 3 months straight, they visited the graves daily, some days were harder, some days they laughed, some they cried and some they didnt get out of bed..
"I dont wanna be here anymore" Seungmin announced as he was sitting on the floor, rocking back and forth
"I cant sleep, blink, anything without replaying all of it, i barely sleep and make it through a day" he started crying again, thats about all he had done in the past 2 days, he laid in Jeongin's bed, wearing his clothes and just crying his eyes out, Minho's and Jisung's room stayed untouched, no one wanted to go through the stuff, Hyunjin had moved rooms as he couldnt bare to stay in the room he shared with Changbin, he couldnt do it at all.
Chan hadnt even slept in around a week, he had just laid in bed, replaying it all, blaming himself for not being able to protect them, for not taking the bullets, for the members, it was like he felt guilty for not dying, he felt like he was the one who needed to die, he couldnt stop blaming himself.
Felix on the other hand had started obsessively trying to loose the weight he had and then eat it all back again within two days, eating made him feel a bit better but then he looked in the mirror and would start making himself throw up immeadtly and so many times he lost the weight and immeadtly the next day the same routine.
Hyunjin had turned to cutting, it was the only thing he could feel anymore, it was almost anything he would do and the others were having their own problems to try to stop him, no one wanted to stop him, because they thought if someone of them ended themselfs first, they could do it next, they all wanted to end it but no one actually had the nerve to do it, they were scared what would happen.
Seungmin had started to go on some nights at wierd hours, coming back all high, some times all giggly, sometimes with some manwhore who already left in the morning, some days he drank himself into passing out, some days he suffered the consuquenss, he had tried to get clean once but then someone offered him a few pills and then he was at it again, the others taught some night he wouldnt ever return, that soon theyd see him on the news that he had overdosed into some bush.

After a few more months, They were all sitting on the floor of the living room, sitting in a circle
"We cant keep living like this.. i dont care what you guys think but im ending it" Hyunjin shared, while slowly cutting again on his arm, he didnt even care to be ashamed, his face was the only part of his body that was clean from any cuts
"If you do it i do it" Felix immeadtly jumped in, in about 7 months he had lost 10 kilos, he now weighed around 39kg and looked like a skeleton, he barely stayed warm at all.
Seungmin was high on who knows how many drugs and was just giggling,
Chan wasnt there, he was hanging in his room, he had been gone for about a few hours by now, the guilt had got so far, he kept hearing Minho's voice, telling him its his fault he was dead, Chan had always had a secret huge crush on Minho but never dared to say a word, but that day it was like Minho had came to him, like it was his hands holding Chan, not a rope, Chan had fallen into the hallucination, thinking the rope had been Minho's hands wanting to hold him.
"I mean.. chans already gone" Jeongin spoke quietly into Seungmin's ear, when Seungmin got high enough he thought he was talking to Jeongin, when there was no one there
"Innnieee shut upppp" Seungmin giggled out, thinking he was touching Jeongin's cheek but it was just air, Felix and Hyunjin just got up, Hyunjin dragging Felix with him and left the building,
The two got to a bridge where there wasnt any people and got on the other side of it
"See you" Hyunjin let out a happy sounding laugh as he jumped, somehow feeling happy, Felix jumped off right after, also giggling.

Back in the building, Seungmin was lying in the bathtub, wrists cut open, in his eyes, it had been Jeongin who had cut his wirst open while whispering "come with me... i miss you darling.. i love you.. join me in death" and Seungmin had bled out while giggling..

Then there was no one left, the cops found the bodies after a while and soon the headlines of the news were "the 4 surviors of the incident, all found dead, suspected suicide"

THE END
im sorry if this made yall cry, made me emotional too, i dont think i know how to write happy endings

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