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• mommy's boy. •

"Hey mom, what's love?"

"Love, is something.. You care for."

"Hey mom, what's with the world?"

".. I'm not sure Firey"

"Hey mom.. Will you come back? "

".... Soon, I just need to rest. "

꥟ FIREYS POV ꥟
I woke up shooting up sitting on my bed. Only to see nothing but dark and blur. And the smell of rotten milk, just outside the window. I reach out for my glasses and accidentally hitting my glass of water off the nightstand.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

I groan. A long groan.

Finally, I got my glasses when I put them on I just see colors. I take them off again, put them on again, colors. Why? Why do I see so many colors. Like a whole rainbow. Is this my house? Yes. It is.. Then.. What.. Why.. What the fuck is going on? It's not day, it's night.

I got up, and woah.. When I say I felt heavy. I felt heavy. I walk outside my room just to see dark again. Normal, it's the night either way. Walking down stairs, holding the railing, slow... Slow and steady. My feet touch the ground and when they did, I lost my balance. I fell. Ow. It hurts, everything hurts.

"..."

I wish my sister was alive still. She would sing me a lullaby, her voice was soothing and beautiful. But then she met some people at school, they forced her to smoke, she didn't have a choice. .... She did actually. But she was to nervous to say no. Just one word. No. She was scared. So she started to smoke, then eventually, she couldn't stop. She kept smoking. Till she was in the hospital bed. It was valentines, the day she died. I couldn't say anything to her. I was out of town. I wanted to here her voice, but.. All I heard was shit.

Then she died. Valentine's. I hate valentines. People are all happy. Why?. I'm never happy on valentines. People think it's because I'm just lonely. There right, nobody cares about me. They all just think I'm some little fire, who keeps growing but I'm actually getting smaller by little and little.

I wish my mom was alive.
.
.
.
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Mom. I'm tired. Will you come back soon? I need a shoulder to cry on.

I miss you.

I feel cold drops on me. I'm crying. Why can't I be normal? Why can't I be a mommy's boy. Why can't I just fucking get that she's dead? Why... I miss her. If she just said she loved me instead of 'I need rest' I would've get over it. I miss her. I want my mom. I... I.. I miss her to much. So much. I miss laying down with her. I miss her hugs. I miss her voice. I miss that smile she would give me when I'm down. I miss everything. I wish I was a kid again.

I would've kill Liy myself.

I feel a lump in my throat. It feels weird. I feel sick. I wanna vomit. I can't get up. It's like I'm on my own death bed, I like that. But..

I'd like to die near my mom.

Near.. My.. My mom. Wait.

I get up walking to the door to go outside, then i pause for a second thinking if I should drink water. Nah. I don't want it. I walk outside meeting the cold weather hitting me, uggh... Cold. I go in my car driiving to the semetary, im gonna meet my mom.

Then i arrive! Walking to my mom. Then laying down next to her,

"Hey mom.... I miss you. Im supposed to be sleeping but.. I couldn't stop thinking if you, remember when you gave me hugs when I cry? I was wondering if you could do that again. I miss you. Why.. Why did you have to leave me. I.. You.. You knew I loved you. You kne-knew I lo-loved y-you. And.. You j-just.. Le-leave me like th-that.. Why? Why mom. Why. .  ..... Well.. *sniff* I'm here to say I love you forever. And I'll never stop. But I'm also dying. When I woke up I felt really weak. Then I cried about my sister. I forgot her voice. I forgot her beautiful voice. All I remember was the dry words coming from her mouth. I'm cold." 

"I'm gonna rest with you mom. I'm tired to. "

A/N: So... Um.. I love to hc firey as a mommy's boy I think its pretty obvious!!! I love my mom :) IF YOU LOVE UR MOM GIVE THIS CHAPTER A STAR!!! ALSO COMMENT IF U LOVE UR MOM!!! or don't :)