Toxicity 2 .

006: "you .. make me .. happy ."

makayla's pov:

i had been out with alexa for almost 6 hours, being with her was such a breath of fresh air, i felt .. free yk? i love jada obviously but i kinda felt like i was always on alert, but with alexa, there wasn't any arguing, no animosity, no nothing, just us.

i had been wanting to tell jada about the whole baby idea, i had. but the way she ALWAYS just is so closed up makes me hesitant to say anything, it's always been like this though, even when we were in high-school, i thought i'd gotten used to it by now but obviously not. now it was me and alexa sitting in her car while it was pouring down raining.

she looked at me with a smirk on her face. "please don't tell me you wanna go outside" i asked her holding in a laugh. "it'll be funny, trust me i wouldn't let you do something that i know you wouldn't be safe doing" she said looking at me with a comforting smile. that right there alone was one of the millions of things jada never said.

i smiled and opened the door, and once i did that, alexa got out if the car and just stood there, and then closed the door slowly. i walked over to her side of the car and pulled her to the middle of the parking lot. we'd played in the rain for atleast another two hours and it was still drizzling. "you know your really fun to be around, you know that? your mind, your thoughts, there all just so .. smart." she said making eye contact with me through the rain. i smiled and kept eye contact "you .. make me .. happy" i said to her as her eyes lit up. "it's only been like 12 hours since we met, but your litterally my bestfriend".

"your my bestfriend to makayla. don't let anyone ever tell you that your not worth something that you deserve, i see the way thay jada looks at you, that's not love, that's regret .." she said hugging me. "you think so?" i asked and she nodded.

at this point it was like 4 in the morning, but i powered my phone off so jada couldn't even contact me of she tried, i knew id have about a thousand missed calls and a long ass lecture once i got home but i didn't care. me and alexa were laying on the patch of grass looking at the pitch black sky, talking about God knows what, i remember the last question she asked me, and i had answered with the huge philosophy of what life meant to me, and then she asked me if i ever wanted kids.
"i was about to start the process of a surrogacy, but once jada found out about it, she shut it down real quick and said she didn't wanna loose her mischievous years, so to make up for it, she bought me the puppies."

"makayla are you fucking serious? she said that to you and you just let it slide? oh girl no .. and the fact that she even tell you maybe later in life .. that girl is using you .. i don't know if you see it .. but she is .. " she said turning to look at me.

"no no no i swear she isn't like that she just has her own way of showing affection, maybe she didn't mean it .." i said getting defensive. alexa sat up "lemme take you home before she gets on my ass" she said nonchalantly.

again .. i said nothing, this is what happened when anybody found out about the way jada treated me, i didn't see anything wrong with it but i knew something was wrong, but i didn't wanna make her even more mad, so i just didn't say anything.

she dropped me off at home and it was silent, she didn't say anything and neither did i .. then once i opened the door, to my surprise the lights were off, i would've thought that she'd have a search party looking for me, maybe not .. anyways , i walked upstairs and opened the door to our room and there she was, sitting in the chair in our room with her eyes red and puffy, and a an angry look on her face.

"hey .. " i said waving at her

she wiped her eyes and looked at me "ian think you were gonna come home, but you did, mm .. surprising"

and i already knew i was in for hella lot of yelling.