In the shadows of the night,
suga's heart dies pine..
For his feelings for Jin,
He can't define ..
The way he smiles,The way he talks
Suga's love for him secretly stalks..
But fear holds him back, his words unsaid..
For what if jin's response is d...
Yoongi ran from there and immediately took a taxi.. he reached his home.. his hsart was becoming heavier with pain.. he was having breathing problems.. he needs to cry but couldn't even cry.. it hurts..
Yoongi ran to his bathroom and throws up all he had in his stomach.. he then looked at his reflection on the mirror.. he looks like someone has sucks all the life from his body.. he turned on the shower and sit down there.. hugging his knees.. he cried.. the shower water covered his tears..
After an hour he walked out of the bathroom..then he changed into his pajamas.. he had no appetite so he went to sleep.. but before sleeping he did what he has always done.. sharing his heart with his diary..
Dear Diary, September 12,
I thought i will have the best night tof my life .. but everytime i thought that everything will go smoothly, something happened and reminded me how unlucky i am..
It was namjoon's birthday.. even though I don't like to go to parties.. i mean no one had ever invited me to one.. so i was nervous.. but i had jin hyung with me.. and that's the reason i was ok with going to the party .. i cam go anywhere with him..
Many things happened there.. but in the end i saw jin and namjoon were kissing eachother.. it hurts.. why? Because i ..i love him... He don't.. but i do .. He's the only person who has been there for me genuinely without faking it ..
He's my only friend.. and i fall for him the first time i saw him.. never believed in love at first sight but after seeing him i thought something like that exist.. he is my saviour.. i love him so so much..
I wasn't expecting him to feel the same for me but still it hurts.. it hurts thinking that probably he was just being nice to me.. feeling pity for me .. seeing me as a vulnerable boy.. and idiot me who never get any affection from anyone in his life thought he might love me like i do ..
It's not his fault at all.. it's my fault.. i loved him.. loved? I still do and will do.. I can't loose his friendship.. today is the last day I'm crying over this feelings because I'm going to forget it and pretend that this Never happened.. I'll be the same for him and he'll be the same for me..
Why people fall for someone whom they can never have? I wasn't expecting my feelings to get returned by him but then why it hurts so bad? I lost something i never had, yet it hurts so bad..
It hurts...
Yoongi..
As yoongi finished writing while crying.. his tears fell on the paper .. he hugged the diary and cried.. this diary is the withness of their moments and his feelings.. he cried for another hour and then sleep like that .. hugging the diary..
On the other hand jin felt like his heart is hurting so badly.. he was feeling restless all of a sudden.. he keep his hand on his chest and thought "what's happening with me? Why am i feeling like crying? Why it's hurting?" Few drop of tears fall down from his eyes..
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If it's not ment to be then why it was so beautiful?
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He's making sure that jin is real
Lmao.. i totally forgot about this book.. sorry if you had to wait..
Was anyone waiting though? I don't know.. anyway.. I'll try to end this story quickly..
