Bittersweet Romance

Kabanata 5

Lifeline, its saturday today. Don't you wanna hang out? I asked. Sure, i have a place. Be there in 25 minutes. He said in the call. Oki, ily. I said. The call was silent, he then sighs. I just realized what I've said awhile ago. I said I love you! I just remembered that he doesn't like anymore. Now he might think, I asked a favor because i don't want to let him go. Well, yes, I don't want to let him go cause I love him, but It was true when I said i'll give him freedom. Just not today. Oh... Don't mind the thing that I said. I guess I got used to it. I mean for almost 3 years. It was Us. I said in the phone while trying to stop my sobs. I- he said but I cut him off. Oh, I gotta get ready. I fake laughed. See you later. I said. My Lifeline. I said as when I turned off the phone. I dressed up and went  downstairs. There, I saw my lifeline, smiling at me like how he used to be. I then now think, is his smile pure and real? Like before? I ignored my thoughts and walked close to him. Did I make you wait? I asked him. He looked at me in my eyes as if he was telling me something. Not at all, and you look... He stopped. Beautiful. He said. Thank you. I smiled and blushed. We went inside his car, and he gave me a bouquet of flowers. Thanks, you don't have to. I said. I insist. He replied to me. So, did you consider about the scholarship? He asked. Not yet. I said. Right, There's still 4 more weeks. He said. Right... 4 more weeks. I said in an awkward tone. 4 more weeks till your gone. HAHA. I said in my mind. We're here. He said. Oh okay. I hold the handle of the car, but he stopped me and he went out the car first and ran to open my side. Thanks, you don't have do it. I said. I insist, Love. He said that made me shock. We hold each others hand and walk to the Garden of Love. It's a garden where KJ and I discovered when we were still friends. So this place is very memorable. This place was the witness of our friendship and relationship. After 3 months of not going here, it feels weird. My emotions are mixed. I should be happy cause I'm with him at this place, but I am sad because this will be the last time I will be with him in this place as lovers or even as friends. He setted up a dinner. Lights and fresh flowers were there. And to add it up he even cooked our dinner. KJ... I said as I look at his eyes. Surprise, love. He said and I hugged him immediately. Let's take a photo? I brought  polaroid cam and my other cam. He said. Of course, Lifeline. I said as I can't stop smiling. 1...2...3.. I love you. He said and my smile got even bigger.
I wish this night will not end. You're making it more difficult KJ. You're making me have hope again, but whatever happens. I still love you, Lifeline. The moon is beautiful isn't? He said. It is. I said and kissed him.