Feelings Gone Gray

KABANATA 3

"Ano ka, chicks?"

I was in a bad mood for three days straight. And it just got worse when I heard August's request - no, demand is the more suited term because he's being fucking demanding as always.

"Come on, you know that my Mom won't allow me to go out at night when I have a class tomorrow."

Of course I already know that. Tita Feli is always been the strict mother that I almost see her being an authoritarian type of a parent.

Pero mas mabuti na yung strikto kesa naman sa tila walang pakialam na magulang. Take my parents' type of parenting for instance who's oblivious to their son feeling like a neglected child.

I sighed and shook my head to wash away that thought.

"Forget I ever asked you out then." I said, now smirking.

Damn, did I sound like I just invite fucking August on a date?

"Hey, you're seriously going out without me?" Hindi makapaniwalang turan nito.

"Yeah. Bye, asshole."

"Shit, wait! Don't end the call, damnit. Oh that rhymed."

I forced my self not to roll my eyes. This fucker.

"Know what, wag mo ng ipilit na pupuntahan kita diyan para ipaalam sa mga magulang mo that I'm taking you out. I didn't do shit like that with my girls." Inunahan ko na ito dahil alam ko kung anong lalabas sa bibig nito.

"I'm not one of your girls, fucker."

"Obviously because you don't have pussy."

There was a pause on the other side of the line. Like a suppressed sigh or did I just imagine it?

"Fine. Go out without me and I wish you drown yourself and wake up in hell." Ang pikong sabi nito bago nito pinatay ang tawag.

Ilang segundo muna akong natulala sa screen ng phone ko. Damn, that fucker really acts like a woman on her period.

I brushed my hair with my fingers and bit my lower lip.

If I can't take August out with me, that means I'm going alone since Tita Feli's built rules were meant for the twins. Kahit pa sa lahat ng pagkakataon pakiramdam ko mas mahigpit ito kay August kesa sa isa pang anak nito.

Maybe because Hulyo is the responsible one while August is obviously immature and reckless.

I heard Dex is dealing with some family problem so I don't want to bother him. And Rico, that jerk, is still not talking to any of his friends. And Sean is still at his grandparents place.

I proceeded with my plan, alone. Though I already assumed this is going to happen.

Nag-commute lang ako. And I don't wanna stress out going back to the reason why I couldn't ride my motorbike anymore.

If I have car, I should be out of town and not on this run-down bar. This place is shitty but I have no other choice but to bear with it since this is the only bar we have on this small village. Its mere existence is even a shock to some people including me.

I couldn't decide if I have to grab a coffee or cocktail after dinner so instead of stopping on a coffee shop just like my original plan, here I am enjoying a glass of espresso martini.

I wiped the foam left on my lip with my thumb when I took my first sip.

I played my thumb on the glass' rim as I recalled my last conversation with Molina - main reason why I'm here alone in this shitty bar, feeling frustrated.