BillFord shit (⚠️ LEMON ⚠️)

idfk sad shit ig

No intro. Suck it up, buttercup.

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It's stupid. Really fucking stupid.
What is?
Everything. Every. Single. Thing.

Bill felt like shit for being caught. He felt bad. Not very often he felt that way...
He felt like he had failed his friends again.

But most of all, he felt like he failed Ford. And that was the stupid part.

Seeing the heartbreak on Ford's face was honestly the last thing Bill would expect to see. And yet there it lied in the front of his mind. The picture of that sad face. That mixed expression. The way a puppy would look at you if you had starved it, offered it food, then immediately took the food back and threw the puppy outside in the pouring rain. That kind of sad.

Bill didn't know how to handle that. He hadn't ever had to cheer someone up before. Not once. And then this? How are you supposed to handle that?

It was frustrating. Bill knew how to do everything! At least he was supposed to.

Every time Bill came back to Ford to invade his dreams, the scientist was either crying or doing something crazy to stay awake.  None had exactly worked, yet it was doing a good job.

Bill couldn't watch most of the time. It wasn't because somebody was hurting themselves. It was because he knew it was his fault. And he couldn't handle that detail. Sometimes, he wanted to cry. But he can't cry. He wasn't the one who was going through it. He caused it. He shouldn't be the one crying.

How is it that a few years with a human made him feel such emotions? It doesn't make sense...

Bill was watching this, doing nothing to stop it, not even trying. He felt like he should, but what? Go back to the person who wants him as far away as possible? But he couldn't leave either! It was either Ford or his friends. And honestly, does Ford even matter?

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Bill's being a douche bc he doesn't know how to feel love yay :,]