Play it || Seungchan

9."Love can hurt"

This was the day. It was final. After lots of things, wondering, weighing the situation and possibilities Seungmin had made the final decision.

He had feelings for his leader. He liked Chan.

Chan had asked him a couple days prior on a date on Valentine's Day. A night for only the two of them, with no fucking nor physical pleasure, only them doing an activity Chan had kept secret from
Seungmin.

Seungmin had wanted to develop their relationship, to maybe take it to the next level. Elevate it from only Friends with Benefits to boyfriends.

As he was on his way to the dorm's living room he heard two voices talking. One was deep, which of course he realized it was Felix, and the other he could recognize from miles away, it was Chan's. But just before approaching them to greet them he noticed how close the two were, they were slowly moving closer by the second.

Seungmin felt a deep pain in his chest, like someone just came behind him and stabbed him with a blade. It hurt so much his eyes filled with tears. If he stayed there any more seconds he knew he wouldn't be able to control himself so he rushed back to his room. He slammed the door behind him and then locked it.
In his lonely company the negative thoughts filled his mind, consuming him entirely.

'Why did he ask me out if he liked Felix?'

'Why did he have a sexual relationship with me if he wasn't interested in me not even a little?'

'Did he not care if I would catch any feelings for him?'

'How could he do this to me?'

'Was I only an easy hole for him to pleasure himself wherever he felt like it? So why was he so caring all the time?'

All these thoughts were rushing in, he was too paranoid to think straight. His cries we're getting more painful by the second, air barely reaching into his lungs. Something wasn't right, not at all about this situation.

A loud knock came suddenly at the door.

Seungmin didn't bother to get up from the floor, he was a mess and a wreck. He ignored it, he couldn't pay any attention to it anyway. But the knocing became even more persistent, the person who was at the door almost broke it down. He heard a muffled voiced behind the wooden door but couldn't quite place out who it was in his state of panic.

Just who was there and what did they need from Seungmin so desperately at the time?

The person who was at door somehow found a way to finally open it and enter. And to Seungmin surprise the one who was standing at the door frame was Chan, looking just as panicked as Seungmin. His face displayed a look Seungmin hadn't seen for a really long time. Chan was worried out his mind.
After seeing him on the ground, eyes filled with tears, puffy and red from crying so much Chan rushed to Seungmin to embrace him, hold him tightly without thinking of letting go.

"What happened?!" asked Chan, his voice was cracking a little like he himself was holding back tears.

Seungmin remained numb, shocked at what was happening.

Chan continued to ask him and check on him if he was alright, it broke his heart in pieces seeing Seungmin like that, "Baby, tell me what happened. Are you alright? You didn't hurt yourself, right?"

'Baby, he called me baby. Why is he doing this?'

Seungmin finally calmed down enough to say some simple words, but heavy for Chan's panic state, "Why are you here?".

Chan pushed Seungmin away to look him in the eyes, his eyes were red from holding back everything, but now he couldn't control himself any longer after hearing Seungmin ask that simple question.

"What do you mean 'Why am I here?'?! Seungmin I almost broke down that fucking door to get to you after hearing your cries!" yelled Chan. He wasn't mad, not at all.

Seungmin broke into heavy sobs yet again. Chan regretted raising his voice at him and hugged him tight again, this time not letting go.

"Why are you here with me and with Felix?" he said it. He couldn't contain himself from asking that, he needed the answer straight from Chan's mouth.

"Why on earth would I be right now with Felix? You're the one who needs me the most!"

"I saw you kissed him earlier!"

Chan was dumbfounded. "I never kissed him." Chan couldn't put his finger on what made Seungmin think that. "When did you say you saw me kiss me?"

Seungmin pulled away from the embrace to look at him "About two hour ago I came down to the living room and you two were...very close to one another. And before I could even approach further you leaned in. I left because I couldn't contain myself to see you kiss another person." he explained slowly.

And as he was telling him all of this Chan's face dropped, from worrisome to simply just sad.

"Minnie, I didn't kiss Felix then." he reassured the younger. "What I was doing was just trying to help him practice for our next gig, you know, the fan sign?"

Seungmin's tears still hadn't dried out, now he felt even more pathetic than before for even assuming anything. How could he just forget they had a fan sign planned for the following week.

"I feel pathetic now." Seungmin jumped into Chan's open arms.

"Seungmin, you're the only one I love. I'm sorry I hurt you unintentionally." apologized Chan.
Chan confessed first. He said it. He said he loved Seungmin.

"You...You love me?" Seungmin pushed back again.

This time to lock eyes with the older.

"I do, I always have."

This was supposed to be exactly what he wanted, so why was Seungmin crying again? They were happy tears this time.

Chan put his hand on Seungmin's cheek to cress it and wipe his tears away. He leaned in and placed a soft light kiss on Seungmin's lips. It was nice and tender.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

-

"So what now? You two are in a relationship?" Hyunjin looked at the pair of boys who decided to tie their relationship.

"Yes." Chan answered firmly.

"Finally!" Han jumped from his seat, "I was wondering why it was taking you so long."

"Yeah, I began to worry you two had enough of eachother." added Minho.

"What does that even mean?" Seungmin looked at Minho with a 'What were you even expecting?' expression.

"We all just collectively knew you two were fucking around and just wondered when you would finally become an actual couple." Changbin added.

"You knew?!" Chan jumped in surprise.

"Dude, the walls are thin as fuck and Seungmin is anything but quiet." Jeongin had enough of hearing his bandmate moans all night long.

After this discussion Seungmin and Chan were feeling better, somehow more free than they were before. It took them some time to finally confess to eachother, it was true, but they did it at last. That's what mattered.