hey,i am sitting at my desk, studying for an englisch test remember the guy i wrote my about in last?
yeah right, the ''lover''. i dont want to sound mean but its seems like he is not the one, because whenever i pray god doesn't show me his love. the love from the guy, not gods.
i feel like he only want one thing and it may not seem so big, but it doesnt feel right,
he only and always stares at my body,
he is probably that type of guy who is naughty. This kind of hurts ya know? Because imagine standing next to him and sobbing and he doesnt even notice, man i was really at my lowest, i deserve the best,no this is not an act.
And here i am sitting in my room , with my studies and my books, i dont know if this is really how its supposed to look but i dont care.
You know what i think i deserve? A guy who will look at me ,and notice my worth, not just my body. Is this today in 2024 even possible? i think it is. Days like this always hit. ; Somebody who will appreciate me for who I am, and make my inner child go wild, making me feel heard and seen and once again like a child, did i lie? no. I feel like god will send me somebody like this and i will then know.
