brothers or boyfriends | Bts ff

chapter 20

"I want to kiss you y/n"

you didn't say anything, you just looked down

Jungkook gently grasped your chin and lifted your face so you could look at him

Her lips look so red and kissable. he thought

He looked into your eyes then at your lips, his gaze lingered there for a moment then he looked back into your eyes, like he was asking for your permission

You were nervous because of how intensely he was staring at you but you soon closed your eyes and Jungkook kissed you slowly and passionately, you also kissed back making him smile in between the kiss

He carried you onto his lap and held your waist, deepening the kiss. You straddled him. He was practically sucking and biting your lips. He squeezed your ass making you gasp and he took the chance to slide his tongue in there.
Your tongues collided with each other as they fought for dominance and ofcourse he won

When you ran out of breath you tapped his shoulder making him break the kiss, he placed his forehead on yours before speaking

"I've liked you for four years"

He pecked your lips.

"But... I was too shy to tell you"

He smiled and pecked your lips again

"And now... I, I just want to love you, I don't care about the consequences"

And he pecked your lips... Again and again... And again

"You don't?''

"No" he pecked you lips again and then your nose

"Jungkook, some day, we'll have to stop all this, our parents.... they're happy, their happiness comes first, we have to face reality... This can't work, it just can't workout"

Jungkook didn't speak anything again, he just looked down but you could tell he was hurt, he was sad and he felt terrible, he felt like he was betraying his mom

Mom loves Mr lee so much, everyone knows that, it's pretty much obvious that those two belong with each other.... but what about me? I love y/n, can't I love too? It's fucking unfair. He thought

Jungkook sighed and lifted you from his lap and placed you on the bed

He stood up and spoke, tears were slowly running down his face

"I'll stop... For mom and dad"

And with that he left, you felt a pain in your chest

You wanted Jungkook, you really did but he's your brother and unless your parents divorce, what you and Jungkook are doing is wrong or who knows maybe even illegal

You couldn't deny that you felt something towards Jungkook but does yoongi and Taehyung keeps coming up in your head

You sighed before drifting off to sleep

THE NEXT DAY....

You wake up and go into the bathroom to freshen up then you wear your clothes

You were rushing as you didn't want to be late for school

Jin told you Jungkook had already gone to school so you took an apple and went to school alone

You arrived at school and went straight to class, Lisa came and hugged you and you hugged her back

The both of you sat in your seats

"What's wrong" Lisa asked after noticing your uneasiness

You couldn't hold it in anymore so you ended up blurting everything to her and yes I mean EVERYTHING

"WHAT THE FUCK" Lisa yelled

the whole class turned to the both of you and gave you both 'done' looks

"Aish this girl, why are you shouting"

"So where's Jungkook now" Lisa says, examining the whole class

"How should I know"

"Omg, why did you take so long to tell me Gajjui (dummy)"

You Just shrugged and Lisa slapped your back playfully

"So Taehyung? Yoongi? You have feelings for them too?"

"Omg should I narrate the whole story again or didn't you hear me well" you were already so done with this girl

"Alright alright jeez, it's just that all this is just so crazy, I can't believe your own brother fingered you" Lisa said trying to hold her laughter

"Shut up" you said and rolled your eyes

"Where's our teacher" you asked like the nerd you were

"He's sick today" Lisa said with a shrug and you said 'oh'

Soon after Jungkook walks in with what... Like 7 girls following him like a lost puppy

Lisa looked at Jungkook then at you

Jungkook took his seat while the girls stood by his side and stared at him, they were in another class, he was in the 12th grade and they were in the 11th grade

"Oppa you look so handsome today" a girl said to Jungkook

"Doesn't he always look handsome.... Oppa it's me park hyeon, from yesterday night"

She said and everyone gasped while Jungkook looked at her with a disgusted expression, she just smirked

"Wait, did you do something with Jungkook last night?" A girl asked park hyeon

That's impossible, Jungkook was home all night" you thought

Hyeon had a smirk on her face, she wanted the other girls to think that she was with Jungkook last night but too bad for her Jungkook can't allow anyone think that especially not when y/n's in the room

"Just shut the fuck up already, last night huh? You mean when you collected my number from who knows where and called me before confessing your undying love for me? Then after that I blocked your number and deleted it?... Well incase you've forgotten I'll say it again... I'm not interested"

The whole class bursted out laughing and hyeon just wanted to disappear, you couldn't help  but laugh along

Hyeon ran out of there crying

The other girls followed as they didn't want to get embarrassed by Kim Jungkook (he decided to keep his last name after your dad married his mom... They all did because they loved their real father more than anything)

You often glanced at Jungkook from time to time but he didn't spare you a glance... Not even once, he knew what making eye contact with you did to him, he knew what your eyes, your smile, what everything about you did to him, that's why he doesn't want to look

Why is it so hard? why can't I just move on?..... why do i love you so bad y/n?