Somethings are just hard to give up. You get attached to things and find yourself not wanting to let go, or you couldn't let go because the prospect of forgetting is so painful that you'd rather ignore everything and stay where you are and not wanting change. The feeling of liking someone is heartfelt and emotional and even more so when that person does not like you back. Almost everyone has been in this stage or will experience these moments in their life. And you just wonder how you can get over it.
It is the quiet moments that hurt the most. Moments when you are laying on your bed at 3 am thinking about every single thing that has happened in your life. You look at the ceiling and imagine the sky that it is blocking. You imagine a million stars blanketing it but you are reminded that where you live you don't get to see that many. This is the same sky that has seen all that you've gone through, all that you've witnessed of others, and all that others have witnessed of you.
You think about your mistakes and what you could've done to fix them. Hindsight, they say, is 20/20. But as you think about those times that you could've done something different, you still can't quite figure out what the right thing to do was, what the right thing to say was. Smoke envelops these past moments and leaves you answerless. You realize that even perfect vision can't see through a fog.
You think about broken friendships, broken hearts, broken promises. You take a deep breath and you wonder how many more things in your life will break. More worryingly, you wonder if you can still mend them when they do. You whisper to yourself, "I hope so."
These things are painful. But pain demands to be felt. It's all these emotions that makes us who we are and who we're gonna be. And you wonder what things you should've done or things you shouldn't have done, but at least you are doing something. Right now I'm facing a hard decision. Do I or do I not move on? Moving on from someone you like is not at all easy but it's probably the best decision unless you have a chance. It's not at all giving up when you know yourself what the main reason is to your moving on. It hurts to move on. And it hurts to not move on. But it hurts less in the long run when you do let go. They say if you love someone, set them free. If they come back to you they're yours; if they don't they never were.
And it never were. It never were.
