More Than Yesterday

It came and went

More than yesterday. Those three words that will forever stick to me for the rest of my life. It's been months since I left. It was time for my new life here in California. New school, new friends, new life. I like to think I am doing good out here. A distraction from the past year which both changed me in a good and bad way. It's been months since I last heard of him but I pray that he's okay, happy and safe. But as I sit down at this starbucks let's go back to one year ago. I was just a simple teenager back in Indiana like everybody else. Who's only priority was her family and School. But don't get me wrong, the partying and drinking were never left out. Which is maybe a part of me I knew I've always hated but at the same time, getting hurt makes you do stupid things don't they? I did things to this day I regret, I was turning into a person I wasn't and it scared me, yet I was continuing my bad habits. Why? Well i did it out of anger, sadness, it was a way to get out of this harsh reality i was living. It was working but I knew it was wrong. Do you believe in love at first sight? Well I sure didn't. I always thought it was always just a stupid fake storytale, but at that moment I knew I was wrong. It all started at a simple not so interesting march we had for school. It fell on a hot and sunny day. I wore shorts with a comfy shirt and a hat because I was not going to get a burn. I left my house saying "nope not today" and wore that hat and put on some sunscreen. Well at the time my friends were all in relationships while i was still single after 5 months. I was encouraged to try and find someone but I wasn't into it, so I just did my own thing. But going to that March was the worst yet best thing that has ever happened to me. While my friends were with their little boys I tried to see who i could stick to and i saw my friend Alex. who is a really close friend i have. Always there to put a smile on my face whenever I am sad or just on a normal day. Well I saw him and just stuck to him like glue. But beside him? Was the boy who I never thought could ruin me yet fill the void I had within me. But all it took was one glance and I was hooked.

"Hey Alex '' I said while gasping for air (it was really hot that day)

"Hey Anaya," he said with a wide smile on his face. Few steps in he started introducing the boy beside him to me.

"This is my cousin Leo, he's new"...New? As in new to our school? I thought this march was going to bring sweat and low energy but honestly it gave me good news and kept me going.

"Hey I'm Leo '' he said while he slowly stretched his hand out to greet me.

And like a little girl who received a new toy on christmas...I had a big smile on my face I could not get rid of. Well that was just the first day that I met him. But honestly I didn't think anything of it. Few days went by, then weeks. The only things exchanged were "hey what's up?" and "nothing much, how about you? '' and that was it. But one day I couldn't stay in place. I knew I needed to do something but what? I couldn't just go up to him and tell him "hey so ever since i met you i've been wanting to talk to you but i didn't know how because I am really shy and I really don't know what to do so...yeah" NO! NO! NO! I can't do that. At times I really thank God I live in the time we currently live in. So thank you instagram so much. I owe this to you alot. Well I put a question Bar and I hoped for the best. I fell asleep for a few hours until I remembered about the questions bar and went on it immediately. And there it was. I couldn't even believe it. I felt like a little girl, all excited about a toy. He sent a question text which read " What am I to you?" What? What do you mean? And how do I respond?! "Think Anaya, think" I kept telling myself about 20 times in the last 10 seconds. And I did it! I replied back with a dumb yet flirty response " Hmm..I don't know...how about me to you?" with a winky face..i know..don't judge..it was either that or no response at all.. And I was not going to lose that chance. 20 minutes later I read on my phone "LEoX22 has responded to your story". When I tell you my heart stopped for like 20 seconds, IT STOPPED! I put my password in and went directly to his chat. I read " i asked you first..." hmm okay i see the game you're playing..alright. Well, to my surprise we started talking daily. It wouldn't matter the conversation. Whether it was about our day, or his love for soccer or school or just anything in general. If I was talking to him I would be happy. Two months passed by and everything's going great. We were still at that friend stage. Sometimes I would go to these activities or events that a certain group would do and it would be every saturday. I wasn't a fan of going..but Leo would go so I thought I would "bump into him" as a surprise. And there he was. This tall, dark haired,tanned skinned boy. Wearing a real madrid shirt with black and white joggers and black Adidas shoes was there with Alex. Just looking around not knowing anybody since he was known. He moved his head to the right to which I was standing and there he looked at me with this smile that even thinking about it makes me smile non stop. He approached me with a gentle "hey" and as embarrassingly as it sounds, my cheeks turned bright red making me look down for him not to see. But obviously, it was too late.