My Hell | Tom kaulitz

For good

I was sat on the kitchen side with a knife held up to my neck, I wanted to end it all.. I thought about every bad thing that's ever happened to me and forced myself to think of them, I began crying silently as the clock hit 3:05am Tom and bill was still racing and they would come home to me dead but I need to set myself free.

I dug the knife deeper into my neck as I felt a sharp pain I was shaking as Hardin walked in he froze in his tracks.
He put the lights on to see blood all down my wrists from where I had cut and my thighs.
His eyes wondered to my neck as he didn't move.
"Serena please put that down" he said calmly
"I can't take it" I sobbed and dug it in deeper
"Serena listen you can't do this to yourself, I know you may think that your gonna be happy but it won't I mean everyone will be in bits and your parents would lose a daughter just please Serena put it down" he said as I slowly let go of the knife he ran over to me and hugged me as I broke down in his arms.
The kitchen was silent while my crud echoed the house, I felt so lonely.

"Come on Serena" Hardin said as he helped me off the side we went to Toms room, he sat me on the bathroom side as he pulled a med kit out he bandaged up my scars and tried his best to make my neck less sore.
I sat there sobbing still as I watched the bandage go around my thighs.
"After this Serena I want you to go to bed and just relax" he said while putting the Medkit away.

I put on my joggers and a shirt as I got in bed, Hardin kissed me on the forehead as he left.

I turned to the side and drifted off to sleep.

Toms pov
It was around 4 when me bill, Gustav and georg got home, we went to the kitchen for some food and on the counter there was so much blood and a knife.
"Tom what are you looking...at.." bill said staring at the scene
"Serena.." i whispered as I ran up the stairs to my room I seen she was sleeping in bed, I then went to where Hardin was sleeping and he was on his laptop
"Hardin what the fuck happened downstairs" I said ready to kill him
"Tom listen this might not be easy so just sit" he said s I was shocked by his words I sat
"I went downstairs to get some water then I seen Serena with a kitchen knife held up on her neck as he wrists and thighs were covered in blood she began sobbing and shaking more as she pushed it deeper I managed to get her to let go and I helped her clean the scars and blood then she went to sleep" he said as I felt sick to my stomach
If Hardin wasn't here then she could be dead by now and I'd lose myself.

I just got up and left to my room where she was, I shook her awake as she turned to me.
"What" she said slowly getting up
"Show me" I said
"Show you what" she said
"Serena don't fuck with me" I snapped as she got up she knew what I was talking about and she showed me them.
I took a close look and I looked up to her as she was silently crying.
I stood up and hugged her.
We didn't say anything to each other but her sobs.
Over time we made our way into bed holding each other close.

I had to make the decision and it wasn't easy but I had to keep her protected..

Serena's pov
I woke up later than I normally would, I opened my eyes as I seen bags in bags all around toms room, I had woken up a bit more to notice they were my bags?
I got out of bed and ran straight for the kitchen.

"Tom?" I said as he turned to look at me his face was different, he gave me a vibe like what I used to get when he would hurt me.
I look over to see Hardin smiling at me.
"Serena come with me" he said as I followed him to the foyer
"Listen Serena your coming back home with me and we're going back to sole" he said
"The boarding school?" I asked as I could feel myself boil on anger
"Yea" he said
"Why the fuck am I going? I don't want to" I said raising my voice a bit
"It's for the best Serena" he said keeping calm while I was loosing my mind
"No no no, I'm not fucking going anywhere" I said backing up till my back slammed into someone, I turned around to see Tom.
"Why?" I asked as my voice cracked
"Just go" he said
"Tom no" I said as I felt myself get more angry
"SERENA GO I DONT WANT YOU HERE ANYMORE YOU SLUT" he yelled in my face as I flinched back I got flashbacks from what he used to do, I turned around and started sobbing while running to the door as Hardin chased after me.

He hugged me tightly as we got in the car we left, I left for good this time, I'll never experience the late night drives around Tokyo anymore or the warm mornings waking up to Tom cuddling into me.