Life On Core

The Letter That Changed Everything

Dear Grey,

You hold me together I know that's not good for us. I'm sorry I love you. I've tried and failed at life. I know this mission will be the death of me. I have to do some good even though it will end me. I hope the vagueness of this letter makes certain you will not find me. You must understand that I love you and our child more than anything. I am sorry for leaving you so suddenly I planned to wait a few more years but the trouble in our land has worsened. I can no longer sit idle and watch this tragedy from afar. I know my absence and soon my death will hurt you and

our family and for that, I am truly sorry. I hope one day when time has aged you and our children have grown you will forgive me. I love you and our family more than anything in any world. I'm sorry I love you. It pains me worse than thousands of arrows to every inch of my body to say this final farewell to you and Coreen. Tell Coreen I loved her. Please I beg of you don't forget me.

With sadness and love, Mors

My Tears stained that letter. How could she do this? What could be worth leaving your wife and child for? Would telling her I'm pregnant with her second child convince her to stay could anything have? I must stay strong for my children but can't do this alone. I wish I had a friend or family to help. Sadly my mother lives far away. It would take me and my Coreen two weeks to get there at the fastest. I'm afraid I might have to take that journey in a week or so since all my friends have enough children of their own to take care of.

"Coreen it's time to wake up. You will not be going to school today but I have some really sad news."

"Where's Mother Mors?"

"About that...Mors is gone"

"Gone where did she go? Is she sick or hurt how Mama Grey?"

"No, she ran away from us... I'm sorry my sweet child?"

"But Mama where did she go? Are you sure she is not sick? Is she on vacation?"

"I'm so sorry Coreen... Mama Mors is not coming back."

"Did Mama Mors die? Did she go to heaven?"

"No, she left us."

"What do you mean Mamas Don't just disappear. Was she taken by bad guys?"
"No, she chose to lead a new life without us. I'm so sorry no child should ever have to deal with this."

"Mama! Mamas don't just disappear for no reason! Does she not love me anymore? Did I do something really bad? Mama, I'm sorry I stole Mama Grey's food all those times when she was not looking. I did not mean to hurt her."

"Oh, poor baby you did nothing wrong. This was all Mama Grey. She left us she did is in the wrong not you."

"Mama is Mama Grey a bad guy?"

"I don't know but she did a very bad thing."

Mama, are you gonna leave me too?"
"No my sweet child I could never leave you. I will stay here with you as long as you need me to"

"I love you, Mama," Coreen said through sobs. She was crying so much I could barely make out the words."

"I love you too," I whispered welcoming my sweet Coreen into my arms. I have never been any sadder than I was at that moment.

Finally, Coreen spoke "Mama, is there a baby in your belly?"

"Yes, it is Mors child and will be your little sibling"

"Mama, did Mors know I am going to have a little sibling?"

It hurt so much to hear my wife's name without the Mother part. I knew that meant Coreen did not see Mors as her mother anymore. The fact that Mors was no longer the mother of my children hurt worse than the fact that she was no longer my wife. I did not even want to look for her. Even if I found Mors what could I possibly say to get her to return? Mors made it clear she chose I life of adventure over her family.

"Today is the day my sweet Coreen! We are moving to your grandmother's neighborhood!"

"Yay, im so excited Mama. I have missed Grandmama a lot."

"I am excited as well," that was the first time after Mors left that I was happy. It had been a month since without joy. I cried away all my tears but the stabbing pain of losing a loved one is still there. I really loved Mors she was the best mother for my child. She was more than my everything. I guess she did not truly love me or my family cause in the end she left us.

"Are we almost there you have been driving all day, Mama?"

"We will be there in a few more hours. You just sleep I will wake you when we get there. I love you, Coreen."

"Okay, night Mama. I love you too." Coreen soon fell deep asleep. Those last few hours passed by like minutes. I lightly shook my sweet daughter.

"Are we there Mama?" Coreen asked in a sleepy voice.

"Yes sweetie, careful now it's very dark. Hold my hand,d my dear child."