Sometimes I wonder what things would be like if I committed suicide, I don't think it would change much since I'm insufficient and insignificant for everything and everyone.
I don't know what happened to me, I was so happy but when I lost the only person I loved and who loved me back it seems like my world collapsed when I found out that she was avia if gone.
I lost everything,
Why did this happen
It's been 2 years and I can't get over it People tell me that I have to overcome it so she can rest in peace, but I can't, I want her with me now, I miss her
I want to go see her in heaven
but the psychologist said that those who kill themselves don't go to heaven and just wander around in the world.
I miss you grandma.....
