It'll be ok [Skk]

Substitute

Not skibidi

Substitute- chapter 3

I live alone. My parents were murdered when I was younger. They left just enough for me to buy this container. They were associated with mafia and they told me they didn't want me involved in mafia so they made sure they had enough money to pay off their debts before they died. But now i live of the scraps they left behind. I have a part time job. It's super boring. I work as a stocker at the grocery store. But sometimes it's fun to sit in the cold room where they keep the vegetables and fruits to see how long I can withstand the cold. Then I get back to work. It pays just enough for food. Sometimes my co workers will give me money because they feel bad. I don't enjoy their pity.

I only work on weekends, if I worked school days I wouldn't have to worry about money as much but I'm too lazy. Most weekends I just work the whole day. Once it's Sunday night I've gathered my money for the week. I seperate it into different piles of what is my food allowance and what's entertainment allowance. Usually I just put all of it into food. I think my phone and doinky tv are enough. Before I go to sleep I dig through my clothes to find my school uniform. I lay it at the end of my bed and get into bed. I try to sleep but am not really successful. When I get ready for school in the morning I grab some money for lunch and stuff it in my pocket. Then i run outside because I'm behind schedule. Usually I'm never on time but if I want to walk with Chuuua I have no choice. I find him waiting under the tree. He's crouched down looking at the leaves. I pick up an orange one and putcit on his head. "Look it blends in!" I laugh and he takes it off his head. We walk to school. The weather is pretty good today. It's a bit windy which pretty much cancels out the heat of the sun. "I can't wait till winter." Chuuya says as he kicks some leaves as we walk. "I like winter, the cold is way more manageable that the heat." I say.

In class we have a substitute, she tells us to do whatever because she doesn't care. I slide into Chuuya's chair with him. He gives me one headphone and puts on music. He starts to draw and I watch him do it. I get sick of sitting still so I scootch myself father in the chair, which starts to push him off the other side. We fight dominance over the chair, pushing eachother back and forth. Once we get bored of that I steal his phone and put on some music I'd like to listen to. I put some Mitski (fire) and Chuuya rolls his eyes "emo" he says. "At least I don't listen to that horrid music you listen to." I roll my eyes, teasing him. But he gets mad and takes back the headphone. "Asshole." he hisses. "Oh cmon Chuuya I was joking! I still wanna listen to music" I make a pleading face to him, which he can't resist. It's unstoppable! I listen to music the rest of the class without interrupting him again. It's hard to sit still.

The rest of the day speeds by. My sense of time is bad. I sulk as I walk home. I don't want to go to school anymoren I want this school year to be over already. Next year we'll be released from the horrible place called "school". They should just call it child prison! (They're seniors, I can't remember if I've said they were). I had a frozen dinner. It had some frozen meat with mashed potatoes, peas, and I had some vanilla ice cream for desert. Just a small treat. The next day at school they had a presentation for all seniors. Basically telling us we need to pick our colleges, or decide we don't want to go to college. I don't plan on going to college, I plan on killing myself with a beautiful woman! Chuuya tells me about this really good school he wants to go to. I don't really pay attention. After I turn 18 I'm gonna find a gorgeous woman and kill myself with her.

After school we decide to just take a walk. We walk over a brigde that has a beautiful view from the top. "When I kill myself this is where I wanna do it," I said brushing my hand along the rail on the side. Chuuya makes a face. "What?" I say. "You don't really wanna kill yourself do you?" He says, looking to the side. "Well, yeah, I've wanted to for a while." I say smiling. "So why do you want to kill yourself?" He asks, he doesn't look at me. "Life is just too hard, I'm not up for it. So when I turn 18 I'm gonna kill myself, I want a beautiful, painless, double suicide." I say. "Wow, you seem passionate about this.. What's a double suicide?" He asks. "It's in the name, it's a suicide involving to people killing themselves together, and I think that's just beautiful so that's how I want to die!" I see how he gets uncomfortable. "What about the people that will miss you?" Chuuya says, he looks a bit mad. "I don't think anyone'll miss me, I got no family, and not really a missable person" I shrug. Now he looks mad. "What about me? You're my only friend!" He says, his voice raised but not really yelling. "Sorry, one person doesn't really mean much.." I say, he now is really mad. He slaps me and runs away.

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Wowowowowowowwowowowowowowowkw what's gonna happen next 😱 sorry if the end of this chapter seems rushed (it was) 😞

I plan on getting out the next chapter sometime this month or early next month!!!!

- Mali (The real Dazai lover) 🫶

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