Nothing Like Us

Chapter 12

Bella's p.o.v.

The whole ride home I stayed in Harry's arms. I was so afraid, I was afraid of losing him, afraid of what I had witnessed, afraid of what would happen to Jack. If Jack didn't make it, what if Harry was charged for murder? But if he did, what would he do to Harry? I hated to admit it, I always just want to bottle up my feelings & never bother anyone with them, but I was afraid.

When Louis finally pulled into our drive in, I saw Eleanor walk out to meet us. She had a worried look on her face.

"Are you okay? I was worried sick about you." she pulled me into a tight hug and I buried my face in her shoulder and tried my hardest to keep from crying, I was just trying to be brave.

"We're okay love." Louis said sweetly while kissing her on the cheek and me on top of the head. I lifted my head and weakly smiled at him. Harry came up beside us and rested his hand in the small of my back.

"We should go in, its getting late." Harry said.

"I think I'm going to take El home. Do you want me to come back later mate?"

"No that's okay. Thanks mate." Harry and Louis had a bro hug and Harry led me in before I said my goodbye to El.

We walked in to the cold house that all of a sudden felt empty. I felt like it had been stripped of its happiness. It felt broken. Harry was still somewhat drunk and shook up so I had to help him out a lot. I took off his blazer admiring his strong shoulders falling to his biceps. I hung up the blazer and proceeded helping him. I helped him take off his shoes and socks leaving them on the floor. I led him into the kitchen in silence not saying a word. I brought him to the sink and turned to water on, I took his right hand and ran my thumb over his bloody knuckles. He winced and I quickly drew my hands back.

"No baby, you're fine its okay." he calmly said. He was trying to make me feel better and to him I could do no wrong, but to me everything I did was wrong. I never felt good enough, I always felt as if I was either hurting someone or making someone's life worse with ny actions and decisions.

I took his hand in mine again, still silent, and placed it under the cool water. He winced again but I continued. Once dine cleaning his hand I walked him up the stairs and into his room. I looked in his drawer for a shirt, I placed it on his bed and walked towards him. I began unbuttoning it, my fingers grazing down another inch of his skin button after button. Halfway down I noticed a bruise beginning to form on his abdomen, it looked painful. I finished off his shirt and tossed it on the floor. I rested both of my hands on each of Harrys arms, running them up and down in a soothing way. I just wanted to touch him and make every pain just go away. u leaned down and lightly kissed the bruise, I traced kisses up his abdomen to his chest. I laced my fingers with his, stepping closer to him. I grazed his neck with my nose, my lips touching his skin every so often. I lightly pressed my lips to his neck trailing kisses up to his jaw. He rested his head to mine trying to be as close as possible. Once I reached the corner of his mouth I fell into his chest, I burst into tears and they streamed down my face. Harry wrapped his arms around me kissing my head. I placed my hands onto his bare chest and just cried. I had broken, I was just too tired of my feelings being locked inside of me that I just broke. Harry stroked my hair trying to calm me down.

"Hey hey ssh now, its alright darling."

"N-no its not H-harry. I'm not okay." he let go of me and sat on the bed pulling me towards him. He straddled my legs on either side of his waist.

"Talk to me, I'm here for you. I'm always here for you." he said laying his hand on my cheek wiping my tears with his thumb.

"Harry I can't lose you. Y-you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, if I lost you I couldn't live with myself. I thought I was going to die seeing you hurt tonight, what am I going to do without you?" I had lost it. I had just let everything go, I was afraid I was too afraid of losing him.

"Baby, I have no plan of ever leaving you okay. I was protecting you and I'll breathe my last breath in doing that."

"Why did you go to the pub in the first place Harry? You know that I hate it when you're drunk, you almost get killed."

"I didn't want to bother you with this before but I saw him in the street on the way to work the other day and he said he would get his way with you if I didn't meet him."

"You didn't have t-to go."

"Yes I did. He will never get his way with you if I have anything to do with it." I just sat there and looked at him. Why was he so stubborn?

"I just don't want you hurt, and I'm just trying to protect you."

"I know baby. I just don't my protection to get you killed."

"Give me your hand." I gave it to him and he placed it just under his left peck.

"Do you feel that?" he said refering to his heart beat. "It's for you. You are what keeps me going, you are why I have something to fight for."

What he said took me back a bit. No one had ever said anything so heartfelt to me before. He cared about me so much. He was everything to me right now.

I crashed our lips together not saying anything. I pushed us back onto the bed and laid on top of him. He broke the kiss and looked into my eyes.

"I love you Bella."

"I love you too Harry." I pecked his lips again smiling.

"Come on let's get you dressed." After getting him fully dressed I changed into his ramones shirt and a pair of his boxers and fell asleep in his arms.