the aftermath // iots

Reminders

Everywhere she went it reminded her of Trent.

Whenever she heard music, especially his favorite songs, his face would pop up. and the guilt would come running back. She stopped listening to music, she started wearing all the clothes he use to, every waking second she woul think of him. His scent, his voice, the songs he made.

"I wanna be a musician." He would tell her, but now his dream is forever gone because she left him for dead just so she could live to say the day, the light, to be with her family and live in peace. She rememebers when he first told he loved her. They were sitting. watching the lake, it was after Justin had died he was crying, tears contuiued falling down gis fake he could barely breathe, Gwen had sat down next to him, she doesnt want anything to happen to him next.

"I'm so sorry, about what happened." She said softly.
"Dont be, its not your fault." He would reply, he was distant. "Why do you stay here with me? Why not be with your friends?" He asked her.

"Because i like you, and i dont want to see you die next.'' She said honestly, looking at his beautiful green eyes. getting lost in them.

"I love you Gwen. If anything happens i want you to make it out." He told her. and though his words ran true she cant help but feel guilt, hearing him call out to her.

"GWEN! GWEN!! COME BACK GWEN!! DONT LEAVE ME!" Sobs, his voice cracking and her continuing to run with tears falling down her face.

"GWEN I LOVE YOU! MAKE IT OUT FOR ME, OKAY?" His voice was hoarse, you can practically hear the tears, and it made her cry even more, and the fact they were in this situation because of her own injury.  Every waking second of everyday Gwen will always think of him. His last words still roaming around in her brain, as if he had just told her it. Whenever he would tell her 'I love you' she hadn't believed him. She never told him those words back, and it will haunt her for the rest of her life. Whenever she hears the other bad mouthing Duncan she feels an ounce of empathy and guilt because she is just as bad as he. The aching pain in her heart that wont go away, the tears, the trauma that wont seem to let her escape the lonliness the abandonment she falls into every hour, the sadness the depression eating away at her at every given second. She would give her life if it meant he could live another day, she would sell her soul if it meant her could see his younger brother once more. Trent may not be able to live any more but Gwen will in memory of him. Sometimes she gets scary thoughts like
"Harm yourself. Kill yourself, you dont deserve life." But whenever she does she thinks of his words.

"Gwen you are enough. If you make it out alive promise me you wont kill yourself." So just for him, she wont do any harm to herself. She decided today, August 13th, his birthday, to go to his grave. She sat down and started talking about life with him, occasionally breaking down. She gets a text that her mother is there to pick her up.

"Oh, I have to go Trent," she looks up at his grave and puts her hand on it "I love you, goodbye." She says. she packs up her stuff and begans to walk away

"I love you" She mumbles.

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607 WORDS GUYSSSS SORRY ITS SUPER SHORT

I was considerong doing katie and sadie this chapter but ended up doing gwent bc like...AHHHHHHH

should i do sadie and katie next?? tun in next time pookies!

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