I will not dive under vein

     I will not dive under vein

                             loss of a man    loss of blood or

loss of joy is that the same thing

         what exactly runs through my body when

it is poor and tired

              where does my breath go when     when

I am warthog

so ashen

     are you in a hurry and

are you trying to tell me I am not worthy that

to break the spell that

to break your spell I must say no

to all the memories that begin

with you all. the memories that now

belong to you

watch me walk away before I try

to do it all      again watch me

throw my luck throw my penny

        into a lake, I now realize is frozen

but if that is so             where

   did all my luck go?

             sing all you want I

refuse        to get into the water I

refuse to     go underwater

if it means to spend eternity

with you