issa keeps telling me to eat
ofc im gonna listen to her
but I really don't want to
not because i'm not hungry
i'm starving.
but because of what parents say
"just lose some more weight"
"don't you want to have a summer body"
"you're gaining"
"you're losing"
"you are a stick"
"I can see ur bones"
"why don't you eat?"
"how could you be full"
"you're eating all of that?"
"why get so much?"
I just want to live
I wanna eat my favorite foods
and gain more
and be healthy
not say
"no i'm really not hungry"
which is what i'll be saying in lunch
and at dinner
and for breakfast
and for snacks
just like I know I will for the next month
until I finally realize
i'm js a kid
and food is okay
except I have to follow the cycle
