Swipe Right Into Love

Chapter One

Fuck!

I can't believe I kissed Ishir Gaba.

A lot of things were on my resolution list for this New Year, but kissing Ishir wasn't one of them. I was freaking out right now, I want anything that can take my mind off the kiss.

The way his lips felt against mine, I won't lie that I haven't imagined how it would feel to kiss him but I only wanted it to stay as a fragment of my imagination or in my dreams. I was not ready to face this reality, it was too much for me to handle.

I gulped down the whole water bottle I had in my bag, and yet I was feeling breathless and thirsty. My stomach is a whole damn zoo right now, and I can hear my heart beating in my ears. I kept one of my hands on my chest to calm my nerves but nothing was helping.

Am I seriously having a panic attack right now?

I took some deep breaths to calm myself. But the tingling feeling on my lips was distracting, along with a wild heart beating, I traced my lips with my forefinger closing my eyes and thinking about what just happened moments ago.

My mind is completely clouded by Ishir's thoughts, his hands around my body, his lips, his hand around my neck. I could still taste the aftertaste of the cigarette he smoked a while back.

What am I going to do now? It's not like we can go back as if nothing happened. I have to see him every day through the window of my room if not some or the other way we will face each other perks of him being my neighbor.

Oh, I wish our kiss didn't happen at all.

Stop lying to yourself.

How will I face him? And why does my stupid heart feel so weird right now? I mean I know the reason for that but why is my body acting so weird right now?

I should've never come to this party. I knew it was a bad idea to agree with Simran for this party.

"Ani, what are you doing out here?" I heard Simran calling out.
"Regretting my decision to come to this party" I blurted out.
"What? I thought you were enjoying". Simran says sitting down on the ground with me.
"I was until..." I trailed off not sure how to tell her about the kiss.

"Until what?" She questions, and I can see curiosity swirling in her eyes.
"Until Ishir kissed me" I blurt out and met with silence.

Simran's face said it all. I didn't have to ask her.

"How? When? Where?" She asked.
"A while back. When you were busy talking to Nishant" I replied, looking down at my hands which were trembling. Nishant is one of Ishir's friends, we were introduced at one of the parties thrown by Ishir's family.

I wonder what Ishir is thinking right now. Is he having these conflicting emotions like me? Or am I overreacting?

God! This is so frustrating. A part of me liked the way he kissed me and another part of me wanted to wipe every imprint he left on my body and my heart.