Daddy

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Joon layed in his bed clutching the blanket as he cried ,he never expect this from yoongi ,he believed anyone can hurt him but not him, but yoongi break his trust ...

Namjoon felt like he was nothing but a toy for his pleasure,he just want one thing from joon and its s*x ,
the negetive thoughts were making joonie cry even harder ,

Even if he have told yoongi to never talk to him deep down he want yoongi to come and take him in his embrace and Said soothing words to him like he always did, tell him that he is sorry and he loves joon more than anything in this world

But yoongi don't seems to bother he didn't even knock on the door ,not even try to stop him. was all the affection he showed joon were fake joon thinks to himself as he buried his face on the pillow , muffling down his sobs..

It has been days since he have slept on his own bed alone ,he have been sleeping with yoongi in his room since they confess to each other ,the memories were making joons heart clench in his chest

And the cold breeze was doing its best to remind joon that he was lonely , there is no yoongi beside him to give him warmth, to cuddle with him ,to held him close..

He cried until there was no tears left ,he could not fall asleep as the thought of yoongi is eating him alive ,did he really means nothing to him ?,not even getting checked for once? He pressed his face more in the now wet pillow
He stayed awake till three in the morning until he eventually fall asleep .

The next day joon wake up shivering from the cold temperature , he have unconsciously wrapped himself with blanket like a burrito,but still it was cold.

Then the sudden realisation hit him the memories of last night came to his mind and his heart again started to sank in sadness ,joon stayed in his bed for a while until his eyes fall on the clock

He realised its getting late ,joon sits up on the bed and remove his blanket , he half heartedly dragged himself to the attached bathroom to fresh up.

He came out of the bathroom after taking a shower, he wore his clothed, joon don't want to go to school but he still have to cause he was absent these days, so he take his notes and put them on the bag and prepare some other things,

After a while he came out of his room, his eyes search for yoongi in the quite living room but he was nowhere to be seen , he sighed and went toward the kitchen to eat something

Namjoon was about to entered the kitchen but stopped in his track when he sees yoongi making coffee ,he stayed stilled at his spot watching yoongis action until the older turn around and his eyes fall on joon,

He look at the older expecting him to say something but yoongi didn't even bother to take a second glance at him as he went out passing namjoon .
He went straight to his room

Tears started to welled up in joon's eyes as he stand there heart broken,
He wanted to cry but somehow control himself and get inside the kitchen with heavy heart

He opened the fridge to eat something
He take out some cereals and milk, he
pour the milk and cereal in bowl and started eating it ,

while eating he again think of Yoongi, did he really abandoned him,he did'nt even try to make things right , its like he never matters to yoongi , thousands of negative thoughts filled his mind and his eyes started to burn

He look at his bowl of cereals and crashed it on the floor in the hope of yoongi coming out of his room to check if namjoon got himself hurt , but nothing happened there was no sign of the older

Joons plan utterly failed as he bend down and started to collect the broken pieces of bowl while tears pour out of his eyes ,he clean the floor and throw the pieces way while crying ,