poems

I miss you.

I miss you

I miss the way you would find me when i got home

I miss the hot summer nights you slept in my room

I miss your blue-brown eyes
And the way they would gleam in the sun

I miss talking to you when nobody listened

I miss going on walks with you up and down the driveway, especially the one that last day

I miss the way you always looked so happy

I miss when we would lay together for hours

I miss your footsteps

I miss your collar shaking way too late at night

I miss the kisses you would give me
My face arms or thighs

I miss when i was recovering from the stupid little surgery
The first thing i saw when i got home was you

I miss sitting with you in the back seat

I miss crying into your fur

Believe me, i would give anything to have you back

To take in everything that happens with the promise of seeing my puppy when i got home

And I miss being able to get through the day with the promise of you being the one to greet me when i got back

I miss the cold winter days
Sitting with you on the couch

I miss your cold nose
And your soft warm stomach

I miss cuddling up with you
Late during the night

I miss laying my head on you

I miss accidentally stepping on your tail in the dark

I miss turning on a light and seeing your pretty fur and eyes

I miss the way your muzzle was slowly turning white

I miss when we had a pool, and you would run around with us when we got out

I even miss your disgusting smell, the one that could always comfort me

I miss everything about you, baby
I miss you with everything i have

If i could go back, this day last year, and tell myself to love you with all i could. To enjoy the months i had left with you, i would, puppy

I wish i didn't have to cry about you now

i wish you hadn't gotten sick

I wish that cancer didnt fucking exist

And i wish that in the end of a day, i would still have my puppy here with me.

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I miss you so much sargie
I can hope i gave you the love and the life you deserved, and i can hope you are doing amazing up in the sky and showing me beautiful sunsets

And i can hope and wish with everything i have, but i can never know if it really was enough.

I love you, puppy. Thank you for painting me the sky.

Rip my angel, 9/15/23.

3-07-24