" 𝐈𝑻'𝐒 𝑩𝐄𝑪𝐀𝐔𝑺𝐄 𝑰 𝐋𝑶𝐕𝑬 𝐘𝑶𝐔 " ྀི ᴛᴏᴍ ᴋᴀᴜʟɪᴛᴢ x ꜰᴇᴍ ᴏᴄ

chapter six.

BUT I DO KNOW ONE THING THO. BITCHES, THEY COME, THEY GO.

SATURDAY THROUGH SUNDAY, MONDAY.

MONDAY THROUGH SUNDAY, YO.

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ྀི

ᵉˡᵉⁿᵃ ʳⁱᶜᶜⁱ

"i think we're better off as just friends." tom argues, no emotions peeking through, i take a step back in attempt to process this shit. where was this coming from? wasn't he just making out with me a second ago? i unintentionally gulp ever so slightly, all the words i had attempted to get out being tugged back down my throat.

"okay," i manage to get out as i fix my posture, matching his emotionless vibe. "is that all?" tom seemed taken aback by my action's, possibly even confused, like he was expecting a reaction from me.

"yep." tom says awkwardly after a slight pause, whilst holding a picture of me in my fathers arms as a baby. or i guess we could just say the only picture i have of me and my dad. the boy with dreads was now directly opposite from me as i walk over to him, causing the picture to slide out of his grip while i pick it up from the floor. i point to the window, signaling for him to leave as he does so, leaving me in confusion. to which i shut the window behind him, now laying back on my bed.

bill was right the whole time.. of course he was right. i chuckle through the tears that i had let fall once tom left through the window. that stupid, fucking window

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ྀི

ᵗᵒᵐ ᵏᵃᵘˡⁱᵗᶻ

after standing outside elena's window for roughly three minutes smoking a cigarette, i gain the courage to man the fuck up and talk to her. the whole point i'm ending it is for both mine and her sake anyways right? so it's not going to be that hard to stop being a pussy and just say it. it was obvious that elena didn't know who we are, if she did, i'm sure she'd know i act like that towards every woman i come across. if i genuinely wanted her i would have been in her pants within the first night of us knowing each-other.

the climb comes to a end as i reach her window, preparing myself to hide every emotion i may be feeling. i knock just loud enough for her to hear, not wanting to get caught by anyone besides her. she walks upto the window slowly as she looks at me grinning. i was a few inches bellow where she was, causing me to get a full view of her outfit. she was wearing a off white tight fitted singlet and pink victoria's secret booty shorts, with lace on the bottom of them, making her body seem irresistible.

she opens the window, in which i take the chance to climb through, her now sitting back on her bed. she seemed a little shocked i had came, this was about the time i started feeling guilty for what some may say: 'leading her on'

"you know i have a door, right?" she slightly giggles her eyes meeting mine.

"el, we need to talk," i state as i begin to move towards her dresser, leaning against the wall and relaxing my body. 'probably should've came here high' i think to myself before continuing "i think we're better off as just friends." i finish, no emotions showing. sure, i felt slightly guilty, tho i'm not sure how, or why... it's me, people would have warned her anyways.

here i am... standing below a girl window that i've known for a few day's, feeling obsessively guilting, but also pissed off that shit didn't care. i'm tom kaulitz. she should give all the fucks there's is to give.

i grab the cigarette i had placed on elena's deck beforehand, not being able to get out the image of her body out of my head. i exhale one last time before leaving.

should've had sex with her before saying shit.

A/N -

tom i'm his jerk era kinda makes me want to cry, like PULL IT TOGETHER??? that's me after making him be like this.. SORRY 😞

short chap bc it's sunday, why would i write 1.1k works wtf?