Ups And Downs (EddiexJuicy)

The night before - Chapter 1

!!SH WARNING!! 

Juicy POV

           It was 6:24 in the morning. God I hated waking up this early. I had a banging headache from last night. Me and my fiancé got into a huge fight. 

(last night)

Juicy POV

          I quietly walked through the door as I was about to surprise the love of my life. I had bought her chocolate and flowers for Valentine's Day, but that wasn't the surprise. I went out and searched everywhere for her a puppy she had always dreamed of having. It took me weeks to find the good boy. 

          I walked through the house and then I heard giggling. All I could think about was surprising her. I opened the door and...

Juicy-" Are you fucking kidding me?"

          When I opened the door I saw her fucking another guy. I immediately dropped everything and ran out the door. I went to go somewhere, anywhere she wasn't. I need to cool off before I go back. 

          Once I cooled off I walked back to the house. I opened the door to find her crying on the couch. She was petting the puppy and when she looked at me I just wanted to scream but I didn't. I could tell she felt bad, and that she regretted it. 

"I swear I can explain." She said. ahhh the classic line. All I wanted to do was scream and break everything. It felt like my entire world as ripped away from me, even though it was never even there. "I didn't mean to. I didn't want you to find out-" I cut her off.

"How long". She hesitated," What?"

"How long have you been seeing that guy?"

She choked on her words," I-I haven't been seeing him-"

"HOW FUCKING LONG HAVE YOU BEEN FUCKING THAT OTHER GUY? YOU AT LEAST OWE ME THAT!"

"4 months, but I swear I was going to tell you, but I just never could find the right time to ever say anything. I promise I was going to. I would never want to do anything to hurt you. I will do anything just please forgive me."

I couldn't speak. All my time. All my hard work. I've been doing better with my mental health, i stopped self-harming and everything just for her. Everything I have been doing, has been because I loved her. Everything was in vain. 

"Please just say something to me. GAEGE PLEASE!"

"WELL WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY?! HUH?!? DO YOU WANT ME TO ASK WHY? DO YOU WANT ME TO BEG AND PLEAD AS TO WHY YOU DID WHAT YOU DID? BECAUSE IM NOT! IM NOT GONNA GROVEL AND I AM NOT GOING TO ASK ANYTHING BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO COME UP WITH SOME LAME ASS EXCUSE BECAUSE YOU DONT WANNA HURT MY FEELINGS!!!!"

"I didn't want to hurt you."

"Yeah? Well you did. I fixed myself for you. I picked up all the pieces and put them together for you. I stopped hurting myself FOR YOU! And you expect me to be, what? Okay? Not angry?"

"Don't put that on me. Don't you dare put all of your shit on me. It's not my fault that when I met you, you were some depressed emo kid that had your heart broken and couldn't take it."

I stood there. I stayed quiet. What she was saying was true. It's not her fault that my heart was broken. It's not her fault that I cut myself.

"Look Gaege, I'm sorry that I hurt you. I truly didn't want to, but I just never loved you. I just felt bad for you."

I ran out the door. I kept running and I kept running until my lungs felt like they were about to collapse. She never loved me. I did everything, for nothing?

I stood there running through all of my thoughts, trying not to cry. Trying not to be angry at not only her, but myself also. How could I let someone do that to me? How could I let someone in like that?

I Looked around to see where I was and I saw a hotel. I decided since I have some money that I was going to stay there for a couple days to come up with a plan to where I was going to go. Once I was checked in I ran to the bathroom. I saw a shaver and I knew how to take it apart. 

I rolled up my sleeve and just started to cut over and over again. I just kept going and kept going again and again until you couldn't even recognize my arm anymore. Every cut I made, everything I have been holding back came out in these cuts. Everything I worked hard for was just gone in that moment. 

When I was done, I took care of my arm and went to lay in my bed. I had a friend named Eddie and I decided I was going to call him.

(phone ringing) (E=Eddie J=Juicy)

E- "Hey what up dawg?"

I tried to keep my voice from breaking, "Hey what's up man."

E- "Yo you good? Have you been crying? What happened?"

J- "She's been cheating on me bro. "

E- "Awh man. I'm so sorry. Do you know for how long?"

J- "4 months man. She's been doing this for 4 months right under my nose man. I just cant believe she would do this to me. After everything I've done for her."

E- "Hey c'mon now man. Don't beat yourself up about it. It's her fault that she couldn't see the good man that I know you are."

When he said that, I instantly got butterflies in my stomach. Why?"

J- "Um, thanks man. I really appreciate it."

E- "No worries bro. Do you need a place to stay?"

J- "Yeah. That's actually why I was calling. Do you think I could come tomorrow? If not that's fine."

E- "Yeah of course you can. I'll have the spare room cleaned up and everything. Just try to get some sleep tonight. Okay?"

J- "Alright I'll try. Thank you again Eddie."

E- "No problem dawg. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye."

J- "Bye."

I hung up the phone. Why was I getting butterflies at that? He's just being a good friend. I'm just gonna try and get some sleep and get my shit tomorrow.

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