Ups And Downs (EddiexJuicy)

I'm sorry- Chapter 12

Juicy POV

I woke up in the hospital, and i saw Eddie asleep on the chair next to me. He was holding my hand. I saw that i had bandages on my wrists and that it was 6:23 in the morning. That means Eddie stayed the night. I moved my hand out of his and he woke up.

E- "Juicy? You're awake."

J- "Where am I?"

E- "You're at (so and so) hospital. You tried to-"

J- "I know what i did. Why are you here?"

E- "So you wouldn't wake up alone and scared. I can leave if y-"

J- "NO! I mean no, please stay. I don't want to be in this dreaded place alone. At least i can suffer with someone."

E- "Well, Josh, Mully, and Narrator are in the waiting room. If you want me to get them i can."

J- "No. Right now, i just want you."

E- "Well do you need anything?"

J- "Just for you to get in this bed because i know that chair is painful."

E- "I don't know-"

J- "It's fine. Just lay down with me."

He laid down with me, and i decided to cuddle up next to him. I didn't want him to leave. I didn't want him to go away ever again. He was the love of my life and i want to give him another chance. Maybe, it will be better this time. I fell asleep. 

When i woke up, i heard a sniffle. I opened my eyes and i saw him crying. I sat up and he tried wiping the tears away, but it was too late. I already saw him.

J- "Eddie? What's wrong?"

E- "Nothing. It's fine."

J- "Eddie, you can talk to me. What's wrong."

E- "Nothing. It's fine. Don't worry about it."

I gently placed my hands on his face, and he started crying more. 

E- "It's just that, I feel bad for everything that i did to you. I didn't want to. Josh pushed himself onto me. I know i didn't back away but i promise you that i was fighting. I would do anything to turn back time and fight harder. I only love you Juicy and i promise that nothing could ever change that. Not in life, or in death."

I hugged him. We sat there for a couple minutes until he calmed down a little bit. He eventually did and i pulled his face back up to look me in the eyes. 

J- "Eddie, i know that you were fighting. I get that, but it really hurt me seeing you not back away from a kiss from someone that you don't even like. I can try to be friends with you, but i just can't trust you enough yet. Okay?"

E-"Okay."

We laid back down, this time he laid in my lap and i was playing with his hair. I love him, i really do, it's just hard to trust someone after they did something like that. I am going to try and be his friend, but nothing more yet. We both fell asleep again. 

When i woke up again, there was a nurse in the room and Eddie was still asleep on me. She looked at me with pity in her eyes, but i know why. Obviously. She then looked at Eddie then back at me with a 'mom' kind of look. 

Nu-"Do i need to remind you guys that this is a hospital?"

J- "No ma'am. We're not even dating. He's just a friend."

It hurt to say that but it's true.

Nu- "Honey. If i knew anything, in my whole 54 years of being alive, then i would say that you guys are not friends. Friends don't lay on each other's laps like that. Especially in that way."

J- "Well, we were dating, but he did something that i could not forgive him for. Every time i think about it, it hurts even more than it did when he did it."

Nu- "Well, people are always going to fuck up. People are always going to be messing up somehow. The thing is, he is here. He is making sure you get the best care. He screamed at one of my nurses because he didn't think that we were fixing you fast enough. If that tells me anything, it's that no matter what he did, he didn't do it for some dumb reason. He loves you kid, and clearly you do to."

I nodded my head and i looked down at him. What she said was true. He is the one that is here. He was there for me even when i didn't want to talk to him. He was there when he knew i didn't want anything to do with him. After all, it was just a kiss.

Mully POV

M- "Excuse me miss? When are we going to be able to see our friend?"

Nu2- "What room?"

M- "302 i believe. Gaege Gibson."

Nu2- "Visiting hours will start at 3 in the afternoon, so in about 2 hours."

M- "Thank you."

I walked back over to Narrator and Josh. I didn't talk to them because Juicy told me what Narrator did, and i was still not over Josh. I watched those doors like a hawk. I just wanted to know if Juicy was okay. I was the only one he talked to, but we weren't that close. It wasn't fair that Eddie got to be back there with him after what he did. 

I looked over at Josh and i wanted to talk to him.

M- "Narrator. Me and Josh will be back."

N- "Okay?"

I grabbed Josh's hand and pulled him outside. I picked up smoking after everything happened and now it was just an addiction.

JO- "I really hate that you smoke those things."

M- "Why did you do it?"

JO- "I don't think this is-"

M- "I just want to know. Was it something i did? Was it because i wasn't paying enough attention to you?"

JO- "Mul-"

M- "Josh please. I have a right to know."

JO- *sighs* "I did it because i felt like i didn't love you anymore. I was severely wrong. I still loved you when i did it and i haven't stopped loving you. I just know what i did was wrong and i have accepted it. No matter how much love i can give you, it will never make up for what I've done."

I stood there. I didn't know whether to be angry or just sad. He felt like he didn't love me. So, he had to go chase after Eddie? Man, it was a lot to take in. I started tearing up but i immediately wiped them away. 

M- "Just so you know, i never stopped loving you either. I do still love you. I just don't know if it will ever be enough for you again."

JO- "It will be enough. In due time. You just have to find out who you are without me and see if you still love me after that. Yeah, i may not like it, but that's what i get for hurting you so badly."

M- "Well how do i do that? You were the only person who was ever good to me."

JO-"Find someone else to fall head over heels for. Then when you know, I'll be waiting."

I watched him walk back inside and i started tearing up again. I didn't want to find someone else, but i knew if i wanted to know if he is who i truly want, then i need to. I walked back inside and sat down with Narrator. Josh gave me a lot to think about.

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1238 words. Damn, this chapter got me crying. Think about both advice from the nurse and Josh. This may be a fan fiction, but some of it applies in real life. Ciao.