ASSALAMU'ALAIKUM PEOPLE!!
writing this at 04:31am cuz i can't sleep *cries in insomnia*
i haven't been here for so longggggg ! and i've realized this app is useless so i don't think i'll ever be fully back with books and stuff. infact, i have sort of dropped writing, i lost the motivation tbh. i still do try to write poems smtms but stories? haven't tried in a year now. dropped it a month before last ramadan. sometimes i do miss writing, it helped me get over things but when i try i sit infront of a blank page for hours. i have ideas, i don't have the energy or the ability to present them in flowing words.
even if i write, i don't think i'd publish over here or anywhere anymore. i wanted to be a published author once, but now i've dropped that dream too.
now, i need to chose a profession for future and my brain is tied into knots. i can't think straight. everyday, i want to be smth else like a kid fr. i am struggling so much!!! but i'll get over it insha Allah.
ramadan is here ! i am so happy ! ik we all are. but my school will start soon and my physics classes already started from tomorrow onwards i am sad. physics classes from 4:00pm to 5:30p and i'll be home RIGHT before iftaar. kinda tiring ngl and if i have school on top of that-
Ya rabbi maghfirli T_T
i got notebooks for the new academic year and now i have to cover them. stupid school. this is so boring
i have been crocheting a lot lately, i want to learn embroidery and machine sewing too Insha Allah.
my cat is in love with my sofa. istg she doesn't want to leave my room anymore.
i am thirsty but too scared to go out of my room to drink water T_T (send help)
and yuh. thats all abt my life these days.
bye!
