tw: mention of abuse + alcohol
not calling him my dad anymore he fucked up too many times just to say "i love you" and expect me to say it back
i don't want to give you a fucking hug, i don't want you around me, i don't want you to touch me, i don't even want to be near you, i don't want to be in your "house" anymore, i don't want your last name anymore, i don't want you to hit me anymore, i don't want you to yell at me anymore, i don't want you to throw my stuff everywhere, i don't want you to pretend like we're a stable family infront of people, i don't want you to call me disrespectful anymore, i don't want you to go crazy when you're drunk, i don't want to get yelled at for doing the right thing, i don't want to fight you anymore, i don't want to be scared when you call my name, i don't want to have to run away from your house, i don't want to be left alone shaking and crying because of you, i don't want to be like you. yet i am.
i have your anger issues,
i have your attitude,
i have your narcissistic personality,
i don't want it.
i don't want to be related to you.
but i can't do anything about that,
can i, old man?
