Jisoo POV:
I took out the note I am going to give to you know before we leave.
"Hey my love,
How are you doing? You seem fine with your girlfriend right? I hope yo both lead a beautiful life together. I hope you know me. You know, the girl you helped on my first day, the one who you smiled at. The one who loved you crazily. That's right. I really love you Taehyung. I don't know when, I don't know how, but I know I do. You know, I used to stare at you 24/7. I always thought about you. Even when I day dream in class, it's about you. You made me crazy for you. Your smile, your laugh, your kindness, your looks, everything is damn gorgeous.
But I know I can't have that. I was heartbroken when I found out you were dating her. You kissing her, you laughing with her, you smiling with her, all made me feel sick. I was jealous. I can't see you with anyone else. It hurts me a lot down there in my heart.
I sometimes really want to hate you. You made me feel so special . But why did you have to care for me so much? Why did you smile at me? Why, just why? Can't you see the love I have for you? How could have not noticed it ever? When you said you love her, I felt like my world stopped, because you know why? You Kim Taehyung are my world. But my world loves someone else. What else can I do my love?
I want to scream at you, I want to cry in your arms, I want to be with you. But dreams don't always come true, And for me it never did. Because all my dream was to be with you. I now laugh at myself, you know why? Because I finally understood why they call it a "crush" Because that's the way your heart feels after getting hurt by them.
But I want to thank you, for showing me how love feels, how beautiful this feeling is, but also how it can be a horrible one. Love means wanting someone to be happy, and even if that's not with you. Taehyung, I want you to be happy with her. I want to see you smile, even if it is not because of me.
I'm sorry for loving you my love
- Love, not your crush
Kim Jisoo
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