For All the Wrong Reasons

SIX

Agatha is offline.

WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING? I really think I'm losing it. To ask Cilla, who probably have suitors left and right who might actually kill me if they knew we were 'dating'. The worst part is I'm not even sure if she's gay! Am I gay?

I just thought that she would be a good fit as my pretend partner since she's clearly intimidating Rori, and he's affected by it. Sure, it's only going to be pretend but I wouldn't want her to be known as queer if she's uncomfortable. There is also the chance that my parents would kill me if they find out I'm 'dating' a girl. Okay, Agatha, you really didn't think this through.

My mind was going a thousand miles into the future before Cilla answered again.

"Is this your way of getting rid of your ex?" She asked in a casual tone, but I'm unsure of what she's actually thinking.

"I guess. Like I'm hoping he takes the hint. I've tried telling him before that what we had was over, but obviously that didn't work." I sighed. "I mean I'd totally get it if you're against this. And I'm sorry if I asked out of the blue. I would've asked my best friend but I'm not exactly sure where in the world they are. And an online relationship doesn't seem as intimidating." I started to ramble on and on before she cut me off.

"What's in it for me?" Maybe she was actually contemplating about this, which I'm quite surprised about.

"I'll get you coffee whenever you want?" I gave her a smile. It's the first thing that popped up in my head, don't judge me.

"Seriously? Coffee?" She chuckled.

"I mean what's a thing that you want the most and I'll try getting it for you. Just nothing too crazy and expensive." We continued to walk, reaching my quiet neighborhood. The streets are filled with trees, only a few cars and motorcycles pass through here and people are minding their own businesses.

"I'll have to think about this. In the meantime, you could hang out with us in school if you feel unsafe and if you want to." I couldn't read what she's thinking, but I appreciate that she offered.

"You aren't as heartless as they say."

"You ask me for a favor then you say that? Damn." Cilla laughed. Did I just say my thoughts out loud?

"Oh God, I'm sorry!" I put my hands on my face as I feel the heat on my face due to embarrassment. Then I proceeded to trip on nothing, and I was so sure that I'm going to faceplant until I didn't. Cilla was able to catch me before I fell.

"You owe me a lot now." She said in an unserious tone as she helped me get back on my feet. I feel even more heat on my face, that's what embarrassment and her being so close does to me. Okay, maybe I have a little bit of a girl crush...

I straightened my shirt before responding, "Yeah, I do. We're almost at my house by the way."

A few minutes later, we reached the front of my house. "Thanks for walking me home. Do you want to come in?" I said as I struggled to find the keys to the door.

"Maybe next time, Agatha. I'll have to get myself home too." She waved goodbye, and I returned the wave. "Take care!"

As I went inside, I'm greeted by JR who was looking at me weirdly. "So who was that?" He asked.

"That's Cilla, from school." I said as I removed my shoes and put them aside.

"I'm so happy you finally have a friend!" He went to give me a tight hug. He always teases me like this each time I'm with another person. I guess he's just really enthusiastic about me finding friends as I'm always inside my room, playing my games. I mean, he's not any better when he's also like that but he does go out.

"What do you mean!? I DO HAVE FRIENDS!!!" I went ahead and hit him on the arm, not too hard but also not too light. We play-fight a lot since we were children, I really am thankful to have him as my brother.

As usual, I'm inside my room but I'm not in the mood to play any Shadows and Tombs today. I'm just reading a webtoon to pass the time until a notification from Discord popped up. It's Pris.

pris: You gonna join the dungeon raid later?
jxde: nah. it's been one hella day.
jxde: at least someone taught my ex a lesson :>
pris: Huh, really? I got in trouble today in school but I'd rather not get into detail
pris: But I hope your ex stops already, like doesn't he get tired at all?
jxde: aw, i hope you're okay.
jxde: and yeah i hope so, i kinda have a plan but we'll catch up about it soon
pris: Oki, you know where to find me!

Maybe someday I'll get the courage to ask Pris to become friends with me on Facebook or follow each other on Instagram. For now, I'm just hoping that Cilla would take up my offer.