Forbidden Desires [jikook]

Chapter 12

JUNGKOOK'S POV

I pushed the door open and entered my apartment in full force. The closed and locked behind me while I was headed to the fridge to grab a can of beer. What the fuck is wrong with me? I wondered while pacing around and drinking my beer. Why the hell would I say that to Jimin? Why would I call him my love? Why would I hint to him that I might be in live with him? Heck why the fuck do I even feel like this? He's married and I can never have him. So why the hell am I getting so bothered when he's with his man? Fuck it he was never mine to begin with.

"You can not be in love with him, Jungkook, control yourself. You can not be in love with him." I said to myself, trying to stop all these feelings that came rushing down on me. I couldn't stop it. All I kept thinking about was Jimin, that pretty smile of his, how he is always so carefree and babylike when I'm with him. How he always cuddles up to me when we're sleeping. How he moans my name every time when we're making love. How can I not develop more feelings for him? And he expects me to pretend like he doesn't exist when he's with Jaebeom? Fuck that.

My door bell suddenly rang, who the fuck is it this late? I walked to the door and opened it and to my surprise, Taehyung was there. And as if he knew I was stressed, he had bought some alcohol along with him.

"Hello friend, a little birdie told me you might be running out of beer." He said with his big boxy smile.

"This was my last can. Come on in." I said, making way for him to enter.

He came in and went straight to the couch while I locked my door. I then also went to join him and sit down. He opened his can of beer and started drinking.

"Why are you drinking at this time of the night?" Tae asked me. I just chuckled and shook my head. Because of Jimin, obviously. Who else?

"I'm in deep shit, I thought it was just a mere infatuation. A crush that would die down once we fuck but damn I was wrong haha. I'm in love with someone I can't even have." I said those words bitterly and then drank my beer again. Taehyung just nodded in understanding at my words.

"What about you? Why are you drinking at this time of the night?" I asked while glancing at him.

"Oh friend, just like you, I'm also in love with someone I can't even have." He said, looking down. The sadness in his voice was clearly audible. I looked at him as I was confused.

"What? What do you mean by that? You're in love with someone? How come I don't know that?" I asked while my eyebrows were furrowed in confusion. It seems I might have been too absorbed by my own problems and I've been neglecting my friend. How come I don't even know that he likes someone?

"You don't know because you're oblivious... anyway... tell me about Jimin. Is he even cute? I've never seen him in person." Taehyung asked, I couldn't help but break into a smile as I thought about Jimin.

"Taehyung, he's such an angel. He's not only cute but really pretty as well. He has this really nice and beautiful voice, he's sexy, has this amazing body and cute height. Tae, his smile is..."

"Okay, stop, Jungkook. Do you really think I wanna know that much? I don't want to hear you saying things like that about someone else." Taehyung spoke a bit harshly, making me widen my eyes at his words. What does that even mean?

"So who the fuck am I supposed to speak about?" I asked.

"Me." Taehyung said.

I turned and looked at him. He was also looking at me with soft eyes, There was some silence between up for a bit but then suddenly, Taehyung laughed while shaking his head.

"Gosh, you should've seen your face, ahahaha." He laughed and even slapped my thigh a little. I chuckled as well but didn't exactly laugh. That was way too serious to just be a joke. But I just kept quiet and did not address it. Instead, I looked at his hand, which was still on my thigh. His long fingers trailing on it. Which reminds me, Jimin is so addicted to my thighs, my chest and abs. The way he always trails his fingers on me always makes me horny.