silent no more

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Paul had recently become a lot closer with Bolton Smilie, he was the first person he ever told about his uncle.

Ever since he moved in with Eddie and became friends with Bolton he has changed quite a bit, he's come out of his shell more and isn't as shy and quiet as he was before.

He's like a different kid.

However, that's in front of people, behind closed doors when no one is around well that's a different story.

Something no one knows is he blames himself for his mother's suicide. If only he had been a better child, not as hard work, not as needy, maybe she wouldn't have done it. Maybe he could have stopped her.

Maybe things could have been different if he wasn't born in the first place.

I mean there had to be a reason his mother killed herself and his uncle abused him right?

It was his fault.

He deserved everything bad that ever happened to him.

And even now when he is living in a happy loving household he can't seem to shake the thoughts, the urges, the need.

Since Paul was 13 he has been self-harming and starving himself, it was his way of coping. No one knows about it still to this day.