What happened last in the previous part:
We then lied down and watched a movie.. that night was comfortable although i got a bit emotional it was great spending time with minho hyung after this tiring day...
End..I woke up annoyed by the sun hitting my face, i looked to my side and saw leeknow hyung laying next to me, we must've fallen asleep yesterday while watching the movie, minho hyung looks like an angel even when he's sleeping like this, i wish we could be together i wish i could confess to him i wish... i wish i can kiss him ...
One kiss won't hurt right? He's sleeping....What the fuck am i thinking about, get yourself together jeongin!
I shook my head as if to get these thoughts out of my head, it was hard for me to keep my feelings from him when he is literally with me every single day, it was even harder knowing we can't be together we don't even have a chance to be..
As i was lost in my thoughts i saw hyung opening his eyes and looking at me3rd person's pov:
"Morning agi-pang" he said a soft smile on his face soon noticing that the younger was a bit off as he got up and started to dress up for them to leave and go back to the dorms, jeongin saying it back while changing and packing his stuff, 'what happened that made him upset since the very beginning of his day?' Minho thought, he went after jeongin and saw him brushing his teeth.
"Did something happen? Why are you upset when you just woke up In-ah?"The younger shook his head as no, what could he tell him? That he is sad he can't confess to him and he can't even be with him even if minho loves him back?
"Just a bad mood" jeongin said after spitting the water and drying his face with a towel, then went out to continue packing as they soon left and went back to the dorms.
jeongin is someone who keeps everything to himself, he doesn't share his thoughts with anyone and it's been so hard for him to keep it that way lately.. especially when he is next to Minho all the time, living with him and everything but he has to get over his stupid feelings.. he has to move on, but how? He really needs advice now what about chan? But how could he tell him suddenly that he's gay and he is in love with minho and he wants advice on how to get over his feelings cuz they won't have a chance to be together?Jeongin sighed for the nth time today as leeknow also noticed, he wasn't the type to express his feelings but he notices all these small details and acts upon them to make you feel happier, he made breakfast for jeongin and they played video games together hoping to cheer the younger up a bit, but to his surprise it was obvious that his state was getting worse, jeongin was so hurt by being more close to Minho knowing that he can't be with him, it hurts to see him care, whenever minho cared he thought that maybe he'd have a chance with him because Minho cares for him, but then he blames himself for even thinking that way or even getting his hopes up, he was conflicted and having inner arguments which was making it very difficult to handle.
He decided it's time to ask chan about all that, maybe he could find him a solution or help him out..
"Hyung i'm gonna head out, you can play with seungmin hyung or lixie hyung"
"Wait suddenly? Where are you going?" Minho asked curiously and a bit concerned since jeongin seems to be in a bad state according to him.
"To the other dorm, chan hyung wanted me for something and me and jinnie planned to watch a kdrama together today" the younger said as he went to dress up, putting a hoodie and some wide comfy pants on quickly heading out after wearing his shoes and mask leaving Minho in his deep thoughts, what happened why is the younger acting so strange lately?On the other side jeongin arrived and went to chan immediately
"Heyyy In-ah you here to watch the kdrama? Oh? Uhm what the heck" hyunjin said as jeongin rushed inside not even giving him a glance, making his way to chan who was sitting on the sofa tapping on his phone
"Chan hyung" jeongin called out
"Mm In-ah you're here" he said glancing from his phone and flashing a soft smile at him, but immediately recognising the look on jeongin's face.
"Yes uhm.. i wanna talk to you about something important"
"Sure, Did something happen?"
"Can we please talk privately hyung" chan got more worried because he knows jeongin doesn't open up to anyone unless it is really been hard for him, that he can't find a solution and this hasn't happened before.."Of course, let's go to my room yeah?" Chan said patting jeongin's shoulders as they went inside the room, jeongin locking the door behind them.
"I really don't know from where to start.. but you should be prepared for the shock hyung..""Don't scare me like that Innie, what happened?" Jeongin sighed and played with his hair nervously tugging it to the back than sitting on the bed "hyung.. i actually.. first thing is, i think i'm g-gay" jeongin said putting his face in his palms while leaning on his legs, hearing chan sigh in relief than looking confused at him
"God I.N, i thought something bad happened to you! And so? What if you're gay, scared i won't accept this? I love you the way you are silly, I don't care wether you're straight, gay, bi or whatever.." this time jeongin was the one to sigh relaxing a bit, but the big part is yet to come
"Thanks hyung, i was scared but you made me feel better now, but the thing is.. that i love someone.."
Chan nodded understanding "and who is it, Mind telling me?" Another sigh escaped I.n's mouth
"I love m-minho hyung.. i really didn't decide that.. i just fell in love with him a long time ago but it's been so difficult for me it's suffocating me hyung i-" jeongin's eyes brimmed with tears as he hid his face not wanting the older to see him crying
"Hey Innie look at me, don't hide your tears from me" chan said engulfing him in a hug and patting his hair as the younger cried more
"Hyung .. what should i do..?" Jeongin asked between his sniffles as he broke the hug and looked at chan with his plump lips and puffy eyes due to crying "it's hard hyung... i wanna get rid of these feelings.. it hurts to know that we can't even be together if we want to" he said as tears fell from his eyes even more and chan patted his hair softly kissing his forehead "who said that I.n-ah? If he loves you back you will be able to be together" chan said reassuring him, confusing the maknae as he looked confused at him and tilted his head cutely "how? What about our contract hyung?"
"We'll deal with it then.. you know all i care about is you guys.. i said it before, i'd die for stray kids that's for sure.. i would do anything for you my members, my family" chan said hugging jeongin once more as the maknae felt safe.. it really was the right choice to come to his leader, but it made him think more.. did he burden chan? Chan already has lots of weighs on his shoulders to carry, what if he makes it heavier for him now?
"Hyung i really didn't wanna bother you or make you concerned or even make you carry my weight on your shoulders-"
"Hey hey, i know you carry your weight alone all the time not wanting to burden us, which isn't true silly i want you to be comfortable with me and tell me, that way it's easier for you.. it's not a burden for me at all.. now come here my agi-pang, so you're in love huh? When did you grow up like that" chan asked and both giggled at that soon cuddling and sleeping on the bed ...To be continued~
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Impossible love
FanfictionSkz story Jeongho ship Wholesome, contains fluff maybe little angst? and idk what i might write later, may contain smut later on :) Enjoy!