Impossible love

Part 3

Quick recap:

Jeongin went and asked for chan's advice ranting his burden to him as he comforted the younger and listened carefully, providing him with a safe space to come to whenever he's burdened or facing a problem..

End of recap

After the confession jeongin just did, they both slumped on the bed cuddling as jeongin slowly stopped crying in chan's embrace.. Coming to chan was the right choice in that moment he knew for sure but he still had to think.. or maybe overthink, how is he gonna just go and confess to leeknow about his love? How could he just easily go to him and tell him he's been in love with him years ago? It feels so wrong to him.. yet bangchan told him this would be the right choice.

That way at least he would know if he liked him back, he would know if they have a chance of being together or not.
But the younger was scared, scared of commitment, scared of the answer he's gonna get, he never thought that one day leeknow would love him back and that's what's scaring him, in his mind he's gonna get rejected, but he thought that maybe chan was right.. he's just overthinking all of this.

At least now if minho said yes, they can be together...

That day went by smoothly as jeongin watched kdrama with hyunjin and spent the night over at the other dorm, he wants to clear his mind a bit and distance himself for a while, he thought this would be the right choice, totally neglecting the older's feelings..

What about leeknow?

It was morning again, the younger woke up next to hyunjin, he smiled softly at the pretty boy next to him as he admired his features. As he was staring at the sleeping boy, the dancer stirred awake and looked at In's eyes directly staring at him, he smiled softly at him but soon noticed how close jeongin was in the moment.

He then got a bit closer both not breaking eye contact, until hyunjin's lips landed on the younger's ones, jeongin pulled away closing his eyes.
What was that? What were they thinking about? Wasn't jeongin ranting about him being in love with minho just yesterday? And now he was just admiring and kissing hyunjin!?
"Stop.." he said closing his eyes tightly startling the dancer as he worridly looked at him backing away "why? What happened Innie?"
And suddenly jeongin started crying, guilt washing over him as he cursed himself.. was he just a cheater? Leeknow doesn't deserve someone like him, he doesn't even know why he did that, why he kissed hyunjin..
the older panicked at the sudden action as he quickly took him in his embrace patting his hair softly "shhh it's okay.. Innie please could you tell me why you're crying?" He asked softly yet confused, the said boy sniffled more as he finally managed to stop his crying a little bit
"It's just.. i-i thought.. i didn't know you like me and i.. i think.." he was interrupted by hyunjin chuckling a little bit "silly is this why you're crying?" He asked as he hugged him tighter "n-no i thought i love m-minho hyung and now we kissed.. am i just a cheater? I don't deserve to love him hyunnie i.." then hyunjin hugged him tightly and kissed his forhead "no don't say that.. i was the one who kissed you okay? I'm sorry i didn't ask for your permission first mm? Also it was just the moment i didn't think of you that way before Innie don't worry about me yeah?" HyunJin sighed as he blamed himself for getting the younger in this state, it was all his fault.. he made the younger be hard on himself because of his urge to kiss him.

"No I don't want to even imagine if you asked me what my answer would've been hyung.." the younger cursed himself for being emotional first thing in the morning it was so rare for jeongin to cry in front of anyone yet he cried thrice these past few days.. he hated it.

"Hey look at me.. can i kiss you again?" Hyunjin asked normally as jeongin looked at him confused yet surprised at the same time "i.." I.n just gazed again and looked at the dancer's captivating lips then back to his eyes, hyunjin asked this as if it was a normal question but it messed with the younger's feelings a lot...

What happened with jeongin? Why did he suddenly change? What would he respond to hyunjin this time? Would he kiss him again? Did all of this happen just cuz he was lonely for a long time, or...?

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I'm back after a long time (btw i still didn't finish exams but got the urge to write CUZ I'M FREAKING SICK OF UNIVERSITY AND YEAH bye see you when i maybe write again? Idk when that will be but until then..