Lisa
Dinner was the best. Okay? The. Best. The food was all amazing, Chaeyoung was beautiful, and she behaved like she couldn't take her hands off me.
Maybe I should talk a little more about the details, but my head is full of sex now. How does Chaeyoung fuck me? The last time I did it (it was rape though) I remember that it hurt as hell. There's never a time when it didn't hurt in the first place, so I'm very worried now. What if it hurts? It's okay for me to hurt from it. I can endure it. But what about Chaeyoung? She might be disappointed at me. I don't want to be abandoned by her...
Chaeyoung told me to wait in her bed, so I just sat there not knowing what to do. Should I take off my clothes so that she doesn't get bothered?
Before I did anything, Chaeyoung came back to the room and stared at me. Then she reached the bed in four big steps and gently kissed my lips. "Are you sure about this? You don't have to do anything you don't want to do, and I won't hate you for that."
I stared at Chaeyoung and thought about it. Then I thought again about asking myself many times since yesterday. Do I really want to do this? Having a sex?
Chaeyoung is looking at me with kind eyes, looks like she's waiting for me to speak, and she's not tired of it.
I bit my lip and told her choosing to go with the truth. "I'm scared. But I want to try it."
She nodded and cupped my face. "You can stop it at any time. Whenever you don't like it, you have to say it. You need to trust me, and I need to trust you, too. You're not hiding things from me- at least when we're having sex. Is that clear?"
I nodded. "Okay, let's do this." ...But, what should I do? When I stared at Chaeyoung, she laughed and kissed my lips. As usual. When she licked my lips with her tongue, I whined a little and opened my mouth. Her tongue came in gently and licked my tongue. The back of my teeth. The wall of the mouth.
That made me feel so good. Despite my best efforts, another whine let out from my throat.
Chaeyoung caressed my neck and the kiss fell on my chin. And then my neck.
My head fell back, and I desperately blocked my mouth with my hands tried not to whine. Still, I couldn't stop whining, and I bit my lips too much it hurts.
When I felt a kiss on my hand and opened my eyes, Chaeyoung lifted my hand to her lips and kissed it. Her thumb traced my lips. "Why are you putting up with whining?"
"I- I don't want you to hear that. That's disgusting." I murmured.
She looked at me as if she couldn't understand what I was saying. "Disgusting? You wouldn't dare to deny the most favorite sounds of mine in the world."
I couldn't stand Chaeyoung's gaze and bowed down. "But...but, my brother said it was disgusting."
Chaeyoung didn't say anything. Does she hate that sound too? I thought she said she liked it...
Before I said anything, Chaeyoung gently grabbed my chin and made me look at her. "Forget everything your fucking brother said. It's a bunch of shit, and I deny everything he said. They're all shit, not fucking true. I don't know what else he said, but I swear to God, your whining is beautiful and the sound I love. The sound I want to hear every day. So, please don't put up with them. And don't bite your lips too hard. It's sexy, but I don't want you to hurt your lips."
I think I heard her wrong. It seemed like she liked my whining. "Did you just say that you like my whining?"
She laughed and stroked my cheek with her thumbs. "I did. Hell, I like all the sounds you make. I-God, how many times should I tell you that?"
Chaeyoung kissed me all over my face and looked at me as if I had been the most important thing in the world, and I felt a little good.
I dropped my head again so that Chaeyoung could easily access my neck. "Can we keep going now?"
She asked me before she went back to kissing, "Won't you put up with whining?"
I pushed her head back to my neck and muttered. "I won't."
