The Past Is In The Past

Chapter 1

(Louis' Perspective)

How do I put this? I mean I have been clean for a month and 14 days so far, I'm aiming for more obviously. I think I have fought off the urge quite well, I have used methods my therapist told me to use. Some worked better than others of course, the methods work better or worse for each individual.

The method I'm using currently is to write it down onto paper, then try to make it into a poem or a song. But obviously not let anyone read it, except for my therapist, Maeve he's from Ireland.

Maeve is the only therapist I have ever been to where he haven't told my mum everything, the way the others have. Last I checked therapists have to keep everything you tell them to yourself, unless you say something about suicide; which I haven't.

So there was no need for the others to say anything to my mum, hence why I have moved to Maeve. I like him best anyway, he's the only one that has been supportive, all the others said I'll be fine within 2 weeks. I mean if I was fine within 2 weeks, I wouldn't be sitting here waiting for a therapy session.

My life used to be really shit honestly, I used to have suicidal thoughts, yes but never told my therapists. I might tell Maeve, he's the most trusted one though so I think I could tell him. Well I trust him and my mate, Harry Styles.

Harry Styles has been my best friend from maybe the start of secondary school, and I'm year 12 now so around 4 years. He's been here through thick and thin for me, he gets me more than anyone I have known from primary. The only thing Harry doesn't know is that I'm gay, I am planning on telling him, just no hought to when or how.

I know for a fact I'm gay, Harry is the reason I know honestly. I have liked Harry from maybe year 9, and he doesn't know about this, I will tell I soon though; I know I will. No matter how much I will hate myself for it, I will tell him.

Honestly Harry is the reason I have kept going, although I have had thoughts that have been pushed away. I go to Harry for my problems and ask him if I should tell my therapist, and sometimes he says no and tells me that he will keep that a secret.

He has kept a lot of things secret, and I know he hasn't told anyone for a fact reason being; he is one of those people who know that it's wrong to tell someone else about another beings problems. And if he does tell someone, he tells me about it, and who he told it's normally Anne. Anne is his mum for those who don't know, shes a really nice woman as well.

Before I got assigned to Maeve I told Anne about my mental health, shes the reason I am assigned to Maeve. Once I stopped going to Rhian I decided I was done with therapy as a whole, that was until one day Anne introduced me to Maeve and I'm grateful for that day.

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So I cba with chapter 1 anymore I'll sum it up to what I was implying.

So basically Louis used to have really bad mental health issues, he still does but not as bad, Anne got in touch with a therapist somehow and she got Louis to go and see the therapist. If it wasn't for Anne getting the therapist Louis might not have been there, the reason he got the therapist is because his last few were shit, he told Anne everything about how he feels and she got worried and got in touch with Maeve.

In chapter 2 it's gonna be the story of before the whole therapy thing and stuff well that could fall into multiple chapters at some point but some of the chapters could show a little bit more into therapy. Also some is based on me and some is just from my knowledge, and one more thing before I stop this chapter I'm not sure if it's gonna be a Larry Larry fan fic iykwim or if it's just gonna be them 2 as mates, I haven't decided yet.

See ya lovers xxx