It was a usual night before we go to bed. I always have this habit to kiss and tell you that 'I love you and I will take care of you' --- but only in mind. It followed with a tears flowing just so easy, thinking that.. 'Hey, we will be alright, I promise'.. Then it goes, I say a little pray before I fall into sleep 'Dear God, I had no one to turn to, no one else, only You.' A guilt feeling eats me.. Why do I put Him last on my priorities? I know the answer to my questions.. I just don't have a discipline heart. 'Forgive me' is all I can say, I even don't deserve it, but a twist of fate always showing me a way out, and if not for Him, I wont be this strong.
