Inhaling and exhaling counting three,
am I a failure screaming underneath,
what did I gain after getting dark eyes,
dark nights, light days, now don't suffice
I have a broken heart, smashed so many times,
collecting pieces now my hands are bleeding,
I feel disgusted and disappointed every morning,
mirror life is tough I am only mirroring
Teary stained my t-shirts and notebook,
soaking myself in the rhythm and tune,
I dig nails in the keyboard and found,
alphabets are still there but jumble around
Am I a failure, I am destroying my future,
I am trying, believe me, I'm just dumb,
you deserve the world's sky and ocean,
I am just someone you think you have precious
I am not precious, I am just someone in the story,
third wheel third grade in everything,
how life turned out bitter and sour,
I will never know I don't know
I keep praying to stop my breath by strangling,
I don't know but I know it's the end of everything,
but it is escaping again I think and I know,
I can't let the god of my inner to die for nothing,
Don't worry, I will survive, the earth is too small to hold me,
don't worry, I will dream of the home you made,
I love you to just end things, believe me, I wanna be,
I wanna be the way you want,
I wanna be molded into your dough,
I wanna these things to reach a happy ending
But what if? what if surrounds me,
I'm not smarty pants, I can't be the one,
I forget the formulas, I make new ones,
I can't study the same concepts more than thrice,
I dream of stories so many times
Do I have a happy ending in my life?
Will there be one on our end?
A beautiful one, no not mine end,
in our happy ending, I just wish for you,
each day I wish for you to be happy,
the only thing I wish for is your happiness,
you are perfect just the way I wished.
~ Serenus
