"LUCI" someone screamed grabbing me i open my eyes, there was blood everywhere i look over and ruby and olivia were shot "RUBY" i yell and start crying. oscar holds me until i pass out.
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a few days later
i open my eyes, i'm in a bright room i tried to get up but i was contected to an IV. i feel pain in my back and i put my hand on it. i was something taped i look at it, it was a bullet wound.
"Luci?" oscar says running in to the room "hi" i say solftly "how are you doing" he ask sitting down grabbing my hand "good i guess" i say srugging "i'm so sorry luci" he says looking gulity "for what" i asked "i should've protected you it should been me" he says looking down
"hey, hey it's not your fault, it nobodys, i'm okay you don't have to feel gulity" i say grabbimg his face. my heart broke to see him like this i wish i could undo all of his pain "how is ruby and olivia" i ask "ruby's doing good he's in the hospital too" he says. i let out a sigh of relief
"what about olivia" i ask he doesn't say anything and looks away "oscar what's wrong" i ask getting worried "mami, she's dead" he says. i gasped and started crying. i din't know her that well but it still hurt really bad. "mami it's ok" he holds me while i cry. i eventually fall asleep.
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when i woke up it was my parents "mija i'm so sorry baby" my mom says holding me really tight. i know this hurts my mother to see me like this. she tries so hard to protect me and make sure i'm safe.
she sits on my bed and we talk. "you get to go home today" she says rubbing my back. i smile at her as she hands me close to change into. once i get those clothes on my mom helps me walk out since it's a little hard to walk. she checks me out of the hospital and helps me into the car. the drive home was silent. i stared out the window all the way untill i got home. i went up ot my room and just watched tv.
i heard a knock on my door "come in" i say oscar walks in "hey" he says "hey" i say he comes over and sits on my bed "i've missed you" he says wrapping his arm around me "i've missed you too" i say leaning my head on his shoulder
"i love you mami" he says "i love you too" i say
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i start going outside and hanging out with oscar more, i don't to be scared of everything now just because i got shot. oscar hasn't left my side, he's terrified of losing me. we are currently sitting outside i'm on his lap.
ceaser comes over to the house "oscar don't do this, i can make it up to you and i will just let me come home" he says. ceaser is definitely crying, i look up at oscar who is just sitting there ignoring everything he said. i didn't know what to do defend my friend and get yelled at by oscar and my dad or just watch ceaser suffer.
"ok fine you want me to beg, i am begging you please! i'll do anything you want me to do just say the word and i swear to god i will do it" he says. oscar smoked his cigarette one more time and threw it then stood up and walked over to him.
"you need to go there's nothing i can do for you" he says pushing ceaser "but you have the juice to help me" ceser says "you messed up, you got my girl shot she could have died"he spat threw his teeth. "and i'll make it right" cear says "i don't here nothing you guys hear anything" he says asking the rest of the santos. i'm still sitting cause i didn't know what to do
"i'm your little brother" ceaser say "i don't know you" oscar says. damn that's actually sad i can't believe he would say that to him. "your not a santo" oscar shouts and pushes him into the street.
"do you really want me sleeping on the streets" he asked "as long as there not ours" oscar says. oscar goes inside and i follow him. i go sit on his bed and he comes and sits down and tries to kiss me but i pull away
"whats wrong with you" he asked "your not even worried about your brother" i say "so what does that have to do with you" he say "ceasers my friend and i think it's kinda fucked up you don't care if he sleeps on the streets as long as there not yours" i say standing up. "no what's fucked up is him lying to us about taking care of latrelle" he stands up and starts yelling
"he lied about it because he doesn't want to be like you" i yelled back. fuck, be like him what's that supposed to mean?
"be like me what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" he says clenching his teeth together and getting closer "he doesn't want to live this life he wants to be successful but you fucked it up for him" i continued to yell. "i fucked it up for him? i didn't fucking want to be his dad i didn't want to be the one looking after him every single night" oscar gets even closer "but you could have kept him out of the gang you could of killed latrelle since it's so important to you" still yelling i pointed my finger to his chest everytime i said you.
"Your not gonna come in my house in start disrespecting me" he yells inces away from my face. "maybe you should should stop being a bitch and acting like your cool infront of your ganging by being a horrible brother" i yell in his face. he was angry, like he looked like he wanted to punch me, but im not scared of him.
"or maybe you should stop acting like a bitch and let me do what i want, your not my boss. my other ruca wouldn't disrespect me" he says "your other ruca?" i ask him "yup, i don't need you" oscar says "fuck you spooky" i push him and i leave.
i knew i should of stayed away, i knew he was a peice of shit. but i love him and i gave in. i call jasmine. she's the only one that knows about me and spooky
"jasmine c-can i come o-over" i say crying "yes boo of course" she says.
i walk over to her house. she let's me inside and immediately hugs me. "what happened" she ask "spooky and i got into an argument and then he told me he had another ruca" i said sobbing into her arms "i'm so sorry but yo knew spooky was one of those guys, come on let's go to sleep
