Toya's pov
12 years ago...
Flashback...
"Why are you smiling at me like that?" I giggled as I looked at Lauren from across the table.
"Cause you're playing a dangerous game, sexy.." She smirked, leaving her dimples on full display before looking off to the side.
"How? I thought we were having a good time and what did I tell you about calling me that?!" I fought the smile that crept up my cheeks.
"We are but you know that I like you and you said you're not into girls, but you came out with me with this sexy ass dress on and you still saying we're just friends?" She laughed.
"Yeah, friends! Buddy-oh-pal, you know!" I laughed. "And then your accent is sexy as fuck!" She groaned shaking her head as if she was fighting within herself.
She was looking at me the same way I look at wings. Like she was ready to devour me and I had to say I liked it. I wasn't keen to the idea of being with a woman at first but she was making it hard for me to keep that opinion.
Truthfully, I had no problem with being with a woman I just wasn't sure what that meant for me. I wasn't sure at that moment and I wasn't sure if I would ever know and that's what scared me.
However, Lauren made it hard to resist. Her smooth talk and dimpled smile won me over immediately. I found myself not caring about labels or what this meant for the future.
"You don't want me for real Lauren so stop." I said as I took a sip of my drink. "What makes you say that?" She asked with a curious squint.
"A lot of people talk! 'Oh you're fine as hell... I want you' blah blah blah!" I trailed off taking a sip of my drink. "But at the end of the day it's all just talk. People want the idea not the woman."
"Well Toya I can guarantee I want the woman and I'll get her to. But I won't do too much talking.." She smiled, her dimples on full display.
"Oh you're just so sure of yourself, huh?" I laughed and she laughed with a nod of her head.
"Absolutely.."
It was hard taking her serious in moments like these. She was a major flirt but something in me bypassed that and saw something genuine. However, with my past it was always hard to tell.
This was our third time going out together and I had to admit I did kind of like her. A few things held me back from making that full leap, like not being able to shake the idea of being with a man. I've never imagined myself being with a woman so it was hard to jump into all of a sudden.
"Y'all okay over here? Y'all need anything at all.." Our waitress asked mainly focusing her attention on Lauren.
"Nah, we're good!" I said as I cut my eyes at her and she just gave me a dirty look before walking off. "Why was she all in your face like that?!" I asked.
"But you don't like me.." Lauren mumbled, just loud enough for me to hear her.
"Lauren I never said I didn't like you. I just don't know if you can handle me."
"You think I can't handle you?" She asked and I nodded. "Hmm" She hummed in response with nod before taking a sip of her drink.
I could've sworn she mumbled 'we'll see' but I ignored the comment focusing on my drink in front of me.
An hour later...
"Uhhh F-fuck!" I moaned loudly as my fingers tangled into Lauren's hair.
