The forgotten one

15

When Ace drops me off I tell him that he shouldn't come inside. I need to have a conversation with my family.

They need to know what happened when I was little, it really affected me and now I have really big trust issues. I'll also tell them about the baby being a boy.

I walk in and see almost everyone in the living room. Dad isn't but he's probably in his office working.

When they hear the door close everyone looks at me. Dante smiles apologetically at me and everyone else is looking at me waiting.

I ask Tyler to go get dad and he jumps up. I sit down on the couch and put my swollen feet up on the coffee table. Women need more credit for having to go through pregnancies.

Elijah moves my legs up into his lap and takes off my shoes. I watch as he starts massaging my feet. It feels so good that I almost fall asleep before I hear Dad and Tyler come back into the room.

I let my body wake back up and sit up more, Elijah still rubbing my feet tho. I give him a smile in gratitude and he just nods and focuses on rubbing my feet.

Dad and Tyler sit on the couch in-front of me, Everyone patiently wait for me to talk.

"Ok so I wanted to kinda have a family discussion. Well it will pretty much just be me talking and you guys listening but you can always ask questions ok?" I ask making sure to look at everyone before moving on.

"Ok so I know this morning you guys weren't intentionally trying to freak me out, but it did. You guys need to understand that I didn't grow up where it was sunshine and rainbows. I grew up in a 1 bedroom apartment and my room was the little closet."

Everyone looks at me with pity. Tyler seems to understand very well. He's more mature for his age than he lets on.

"Mom would work all of the time and I was left alone. A lot of stuff happened to me that I won't talk about but it messed me up. I have very big trust issues and think everyone has an alternative motive behind everything they do. I mean I had a hug panic attack when people were only yelling."

Everyone seems to understand but I can see in their faces that they're a little confused.

"What I'm trying to say is that I trust Ace and when you, his best friend, tell me not to trust him to fast freaked me out. It takes a lot for me to trust people, well not for Ace obviously. I don't really trust any of you either. I mean Amanda and Tyler haven't done anything to loose my trust but the rest of you have and it will take a while for me to trust you all."

Everyone seems to understand where I'm coming from and nods. Dad is the one who speaks up.

"I get that and I'm sorry we lost your trust baby. I was just wondering if you have any triggers or anything that we should try to avoid." He asks

"Well I don't like yelling, fights, being touched unless I touch you first, but even if I do that doesn't mean you have the right to just touch me. Also men. Especially when I'm alone. It doesn't matter if there is just one or multiple I freak out. Ohh and no really loud noises." I list out.

Everyone nods and I see Alex actually taking notes. I giggle a little and he looks up immediately with a huge smile on his face.

Amanda speaks up next. "How was the doctor's appointment. Everything ok?"

Everyone's head snaps up, even Tyler's who I didn't know cared so much.

Elijah is still rubbing my feet making me relax again as I talking. "The doctor's appointment went well. She said the baby looks healthy and is a good size. She also told me that I need to eat more tho because I'm too small to give birth and that it could be dangerous."

Everyone looks at each other seeming to communicate with their eyes and then train their attention back into me.

"Anything else?" Alex asks.

"Yeah actually I figured out the gender. Do you wanna know or wait?" I ask

Tyler yells out first, seeming really excited "I WANNA KNOW!" He has a smile on his face.

"Ok" I laugh out. "I have a baby boy in my tummy." I say.

Everyone starts talking at the same time, everyone with smiles on their faces. One after another they all put their hands on my belly, talking to baby boy.

After all of that ends, Tyler suggests a movie. Everyone agrees and starts getting stuff while that makes sure that I stay sitting down.

Elijah gets blankets, Dante gets drinks, Ace gets food, and lastly Tyler and me pick out a movie.

We picked out the Meg and everyone was good with that. When everyone came back Tyler and Alex sat next to me and made sure I was ok before giving me popcorn and a water.

We all watched the movie snacking and jumping. About halfway through the movie Tyler fell asleep with his head in my lap.

I play with his hair soothingly, while smiling softly. The baby sometimes kicks his head softly, moving it slightly.

Tyler doesn't seem to mind tho because he snuggles up closer to it and raps his arms around me.

I continue playing with his hair until the movie ends. And even when it does no one moves, and snuggles up to there blankets getting ready to sleep.

I do the same, rapping my blanket around me before getting in a comfortable position to sleep in. Instead of Tyler's head in my lap, we are both laying down with him hugging my abdomen.

I fall asleep with a small smile on my face.