(Listen to sleepless by Dutch melrose for the best experience)
He slowly looked towards the ground, thinking about what you said.
"I can't, I'm pretty well known now and...loads of people buy from me, if I suddenly disappeared then...I'll be ruined."
You sighed to yourself looking at him with disgust "maybe this wouldn't have happened if you didn't try such a shitty approach to earn money, couldn't you just work your way up like everyone else!?"
"UGH- y/n please! Why are you so stubborn?"
"You've made me stubborn, it's all your fault so don't blame me asshole"
"HOW IS IT MY FAULT?"
"YOU DISTANCED YOURSELF BECAUSE OF THIS STUPID 'JOB' OF COURSE I'D BE STUBBORN YOU MADE ME LOOSE MYSELF BECAUSE OF YOU" ever since your relationship got worst, you never felt the same, you started smoking again which you sworn you would never do again, but only rarely, you took anti-depressants as a way to cope but it only affected your sleep more. You recently stopped but everyday you felt more colder, more dead, nothing made you happy anymore. Everday was a struggle to live and only got harder. But of course, he never knew.
"You think I didn't struggle myself?"
"It was your decision though, noone forced you too...as far as I know, but you never tell me anything so how would I know?"
"..."
"I'd be much happier if you never did this...if we were normal. Tell me Felix, is this job more important than us?"
He rubbed his temples in anger, trying to calm down, furrowing his eyebrows.
"Y/n of course not, I did this for us so why would it be more important?"
"Then leave it!"
"You talk too much..." he Said lowly that you could barely make out.
"What?"
"I said, your talk too FUCKING MUCH! JUST SHUT UP ITS LIKE 6AM, IF YOU CANT APPRECIATE WHAT IM DOING IS FOR US THEN..."
"T-Then what...?" Tears uncontrollably flowed put, your heart quickened, your head throbbed as you thought of the worst, as bitchy as he was...you couldn't live without him and that was just a fact.
"I hate seeing you cry, please stop"
"..."
"Goodnight y/n." He covered himself under the sheets laying as far away as possible. You grabbed your pillow and aggressively stomped away to the living room, placing it down you tried to sleep but could only cry, your eyes were burning, bloodshot. Your headache didn't get better infact it got worst, you felt like you had super senses or something because every little sound was sensitive for you right now. You covered yourself with the pillow, curling yourself into a ball as you were left shivering with no warmth whatsoever slowly drifting off to the worst sleep ever.
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You slowly started to regain consciousness as you felt a foreign warmth, looking over you saw a blanket wrapped around you, you rolled your eyes, he might have covered you but after last night anything he did pissed you off. You checked your phone for the time and saw it was 3:17 pm...you basically missed the entire day, you then realised you had over 10 missed calls from your friends, unbothered you ignored it placing your phone down.
You tiredly got up slipping your slippers on and dragging yourself to the bathroom, you felt goosebumps travel up your body as the cold water slapped on your bare back, quickly adjusting the warmth you lowered your shoulders in relief, inhaling and exhaling.
you soaked your self In the rose scented body wash and Felix's coconut shampoo, you loved the smell it engulfed your senses as you inhaled it in deeply, the smell always brought you so many good memories but all you could think about right now was the fight you had last night. Balling your fists up you angrily punched the wall, bruising your fists as a crimson fluid dripped down softly, spreading all over the shower making it look like a crime scene.
You roughly rubbed your fists trying to stop the blood but it kept flooding out uncontrollably. After you finished your shower you quickly wrapped it in bandages but in a matter of seconds the bandage was soaked in blood, you didn't change it you just applied another layer on hissing as you felt slight stinging on it, you quickly changed into a casual white crop top which was full sleeved, black army pants with several pockets and your signature black hoodie, well it wasn't yours it was felix's but it basically belonged to you now as he never wore it, spraying your rosè scented perfume you slung your small black bag over your shoulder and left the house.
Stopping at the nearby corner shop you picked up a breakfast wrap and made your way towards the train station and went to Lias House, you wanted to stay with her...you couldn't stay here anymore...
YOU ARE READING
The String of wrath (fem!reader x own character)
Teen Fiction"your bodies insane..." This was never meant to work out, it was all a lie, it was all inside your head, it was all just lust. But you loved him.
